commomwealth essay
emperor concerto
piano diploma
new standards in life
new academics standards
new CCA expectations
i do hope i actually make the best out of it and not screw it up >.<
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fatigue
stress
the harshness of reality sinking in
emo-ing
disappointment
wanting to seek solace through prayer to God
sianfied
doesn't know if what she's doing is right
doesn't know if she even knows what she's doing
tired.
very tired.
wanting to give up
yet wanting to press on
wants to learn how to persevere
yet acknowledges the inevitable fear and reality of burnouts
nervous breakdowns..? not true now.. and hopefully, forever
trying to push beyond the limits
yet knowing that some limits ARE limits.. God put them there for a purpose
biting off more than what can be chewed
crossing fingers so a failure will not be prevalent
something lurking at the back of the mind
yet not knowing what it was.. or why it was there
forget it. leave it alone
will work cause it to be forgotten?
it's retarded, but hey, maybe it works
commonwealth essay is crap after all.
homework to be done
life has to go on
yet still herer crapping like this
not knowing how
not knowing why.
untruthful,
unsure,
unconfident.
oh well. but it's all crap anyway.
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sometimes life is all like this
watching people all leaving
watching silently, no goodbye, no tears
maybe that's what it's meant to be after all
unknown,
unidentified,
like a closed book.
ah well.
bye bye.
goodnight.
it is 11.29pm now
and there's school tomorrow.