Apparently you have to score 30 below to be an angel
Bold is for truth. :)
1. Smoked before
2. Drunk alcohol before (1)
3. Slept with someone of the opposite sex
4. Slept with someone of the same sex
5. Gotten into any fights with my brother (no brother...)
6. Kissed someone of the opposite sex
7. Kissed someone of the same sex (my mother -.-) (2)
8. Had someone in your room of the opposite sex (my dad lor -.-) (3)
9. Scolded vulgarities lots of times (4)
10. Bought porn
11. Take drugs before medicine
12. Hate going to the doctor's
13. Lied to your parents (duh!) (5)
14. Lied to a friend back then (white lies XD ) (6)
15. Snuck out of the house
16. Done something illegal
17. Cut yourself
18. Hurt someone >.< (7)
19. Wished someone to die
20. Seen someone die
21. Missed curfew (I don't go out often so no curfew)
22. Stayed up all night (yup, once in p4 to attempt to finish all my March Hol hw, but fell asleep at 5.40am -.- ) (8)
23. Eaten a carton of ice cream
24. Been to a therapist
25. Been to a rehab
26. Dyed your hair
27. Received a ticket
28. Been in a wreck
29. Been to a club
30. Been to a bar for the sake of playing pool and drinking some stuff.
31. Been to a wild party
32. Seen the Mardi Gras
33. Had a fight (sometimes ppl will trash things out at one another >.< ) (9)
34. Had a spring break
35. Sniffed anything
36. Wore black nail polish
37. Wore wristbands (10)
38. Wore black eyeliner
40. Own a 50 cent CD
41. Hugged someone of the opposite sex (duh not! dumb ques =.= )
42. Hugged someone of the same sex (mum and some friends) (11)
43. Gone out with someone of the same sex (wth... outings lah..)
44. Gone out with someone of the opposite sex (is it so wrong to go out to do GROUP projs with guys?) (12)
45. Stole something
46. Been too drunk to remember anything
47. Blacked out
48. Fainted
49. Had a crush on your neighbour
50. Had someone else snuck into your room
51. Snuck into someone else's room
52. Had a crush on someone of the same sex (God made adam and eve, not adam and STEVE)53. Had gone and watched movies with friends (yeah, i nv -.-) (13)
54. Dry humped someone (what's that?)
55. Been called a slut
56. Called someone a slut (LOL) (14)
57. Installed speakers in your car
58. Broke a mirror
59. Showered at someone of the opposite sex's house (my uncle's hse?) (15)
60. Brushed your teeth with someone else's brush (when i was younger i didn't mind using my parents' toothbrushes.. eww i know ><) (16)
61. Consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62. Seen an R rated movie in theaters (i wanted to watch brokeback mountain leh!! but obviously i didn't -.- )
63. Gone out with friends to the mall (yeah, i didn't -.- ) (17)
64. Skipped school
65. Had an eating disorder
66. Had hurt yourself before (18)
67. Gone to court (crazy arh..)
68. Walked out of a restaurant without paying
69. Caught something on fire (paper money for my late grandfather?) (19)
70. Lied about your age in order to create a crunchyroll account (friendster, facebook and maybe tagged. don't think i have a crunchyroll acc lah)
71. Owned an apartment
72. Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend (don't even have bf how to cheat on him?)
73. Cheated with someone
74. Got in trouble with the police
75. Talked to a stranger (how else was i supposed to talk to ppl i met in church on sat?) (20)
76. Hugged a stranger
77. Kissed a stranger (EWW)
78. Rode in the car with a stranger
79. Been sexually harassed
80. Been verbally harassed
81. Met face to face with someone you met online
82. Stayed online for 12 hours
83. Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
84. Watched TV for 12 hours straight
85. Been to a fair (funfair?) (21)
86. Been called a bad influence (i'm known for being a pure guai kia kay!!)
87. Cursed (ask anyone who knows me to give testimony lah) (22)
88. Prank called someone (including some calls to my ex-tuition tchr about being some bra company with $1million worth of bras waiting outside her doorstep or something.. in pri sch..) (23)
89. Laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex (with my dad? coz we were both super tired after just arriving in america so just sleep lor.. don't think sick..) (24)
90. Cheated on a test (ting xie yes, test no)
91. Cheated on homework (copy assignments?) (25)
92. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex (my dad, when i was young?) (26)
93. Want to be dead (i'm scared of death can -.- )
94. Cut yourself before
95. Hate yourself (used to, but not anymore)
96. Had a crush on someone 10 years older than you (how to love someone with such a VAST age difference??)
97. *NOT VALID* (huh?)
98. Worn eyeliner (i think i did during the Christmas performance 2 years ago.. but i hate makeup, rahh) (27)
99. Skinny dipped (ugh)
100. Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt (and yes, that person found out ;O ) (28)
see.. i'm a good girl! haha.. lisha is an angel yay ^^
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Lots of things have been happening lately, and it leaves me wondering about even more things :/
on thurs morn, we ran 5 rounds for PE. I thought, since I don't have the chance to exercise often, I should just use the opportunity to run faster. Was initially happy that I was the 4th or 5th girl to reach :D
Unfortunately, I got a stomache ): so I just sat down lor. But soon, the pain was so bad that I couldn't move. As if it wasn't bad enough, I had to throw up. I was so embarrassed; I wasn't even able to run to the toilet. I dared not look at my classmates, even though I think they were all staring.
But thanks Hang Yin and everyone else who helped me or just asked if I was ok or not :) thankfully, I was ok after awhile. Although I don't know why this happened; I didn't feel dehydrated nor had heartburn. And I didn't know Q was so nice to me. I thought he was merely a better version of **** **.
Was perfectly fine after a drink and could pay attention in class yay :)
***
Yesterday was the worst lah! Was damn unlucky, had it first thing in the morning ): I was hoping it could be ignored. But it was.. err..
So I brought my jacket to school, hoping that this was all I needed to do.
Everytime the air con blew on me, the pain would worsen. I was damn bloody bloated; I hate to think about what would happen if anyone accidentally hit my stomach area. By the time it was HCL, the pain was back-breaking and spread to my stomach. I couldn't pay attention, couldn't take notes, couldn't concentrate.. all I could do was lie on the table. Luckily they helped me adjust the air-con so it didn't blow on me. I was in such pain that I couldn't just stand up and do it myself. And in the middle of HCL, P asked if I was ok or not. I didn't know how to reply him, so I just said I wasn't feeling well. Then he told me to go sleep. I was surprised.. I didn't expect him to be such a nice person :/
Then xielaoshi asked if I was ok, so I said "that thing.. very pain.." LOL. She asked if it was the stomach, and if I needed to go general office. I said no. I didn't want to miss any lessons because of this stupid thing lah. Hui Han, it must have been worse for you coz yours was the whole day..
For physics, we were supposed to wait for Mr Hong outside the physics lab. The lack of air-con there alleviated my pains A LOT, but it was still so painful that I had to sit on the steps coz standing up was a chore in itself. Luckily he didn't come.. I can't imagine bouncing tennis balls with my back and stomach about to break. Or worse still, telling him about the reason for my pain.
Fortunately during ACE, the pain went away yay! Could sit up ^^ and yeah, I was able to go for band. Like thankfully :)
The only good thing was the Math Pop Quiz. I was predicting to be killed, coz I was doing math on thurs night and realized that there were still a lot of sums I didn't know how to do. However, it turned out to be like, 3 questions in half an hour! And those questions were zomgosh how to say.. freaking easy. I finished in around 5-10 min. Slacked around for the remaining time. Reminds me of primary school test.. everytime finish liao still got a lot of time left. If only the actual CT can be as easy.. but sadly, don't think it's possible though ): SUPER HENG, my pain hadn't set in then. If not I might not have been able to do the quiz at all!
Super relieved, didn't vomit yesteday :) last time mine was quite bad lah, vomit up to 3 times a day. Vomit once very good liao..
***
Today was LA filming at Si Jin's house. All we did was a bit of the montage :( quite unproductive huh. And I tried playing her sis' violin. Felt so light and fragile compared to my cello that I was apprehensive at first : luckily I managed to tune it without breaking the string XD
And I didn't know Si Jin and Steffi could strum the guitar so well! Sounds quite nice lah, but given a choice, I still won't learn guitar. For some reason, guitar has never really appealed to me.
Then had piano lesson, followed by tuition. And for the first time, my hamster got pissed with my tutor (who is supposed to be her favourite person) LOLOLOL. Super funny.
4 tests down, more than 5 more to go. Don't want to count the exact number for fear that I'll end up scaring myself :
Now is 11.32pm and I still have yet to understand physics and practice my cello. Bleh!
***
Sometimes I seriously wonder if I'm taking on too many things. Triple science, MEP, HSSRP, 2 instruments (inclusive of a piano diploma) and all the other what-nots. Bleh I really don't think I can cope. To be honest, I haven't been making time to go to church, which is supposed to be my first priority?!?!
Really feel like giving up some commitments, but I only have this one chance to do well for all the tasks and opportunities I've been given. I believe I've screwed up more than enough when I was younger; it's time to undo the damage and work even harder to make up for all that I've lost.
Haha, Valencia's Triple S. For me, it's:
Stress, Sian, Sickened. Got a lot more actually lah.
SWO concert tomorrow night :) But I wonder if I really should go, considering the amount of tests I have to conquer :/ not that I don't want to support SWO arh!!
My marks are at stake, so my future is at stake too.
And I'm still here blogging -.-
***
While on the way to piano lesson just now, I was thinking about a particular conversation and a lot of other things that have been happening lately. I wonder if I'm hypocritical, trying to believe that things are going fine when they're far from it. Or am I just over-sensitive?
Maybe things are as bad as what others think they are; maybe even worse. Or maybe there has been too much speculation :/ it's depressing and energy-draining to think about this kind of thing. It saps all my energy I should be investing into my work.
But I can't close one eye forever!
And I can't ignore problems forever!
They will just blow up one day and become too difficult for anyone to handle. Much as I would like to run away and pretend my life is fine, I wonder how long would I be able to do that. Seriously, I think I've grown to be VERY suspicious. I don't trust a single soul anymore!
But then again, I don't want to pity myself for living a crap life. In the first place, it's not exactly very nice to believe you're living a crap life -.-
It's pretty hard I admit : bleh, just have to put on a mask and fight whatever battle that has been presented to me.
on thurs morn, we ran 5 rounds for PE. I thought, since I don't have the chance to exercise often, I should just use the opportunity to run faster. Was initially happy that I was the 4th or 5th girl to reach :D
Unfortunately, I got a stomache ): so I just sat down lor. But soon, the pain was so bad that I couldn't move. As if it wasn't bad enough, I had to throw up. I was so embarrassed; I wasn't even able to run to the toilet. I dared not look at my classmates, even though I think they were all staring.
But thanks Hang Yin and everyone else who helped me or just asked if I was ok or not :) thankfully, I was ok after awhile. Although I don't know why this happened; I didn't feel dehydrated nor had heartburn. And I didn't know Q was so nice to me. I thought he was merely a better version of **** **.
Was perfectly fine after a drink and could pay attention in class yay :)
***
Yesterday was the worst lah! Was damn unlucky, had it first thing in the morning ): I was hoping it could be ignored. But it was.. err..
So I brought my jacket to school, hoping that this was all I needed to do.
Everytime the air con blew on me, the pain would worsen. I was damn bloody bloated; I hate to think about what would happen if anyone accidentally hit my stomach area. By the time it was HCL, the pain was back-breaking and spread to my stomach. I couldn't pay attention, couldn't take notes, couldn't concentrate.. all I could do was lie on the table. Luckily they helped me adjust the air-con so it didn't blow on me. I was in such pain that I couldn't just stand up and do it myself. And in the middle of HCL, P asked if I was ok or not. I didn't know how to reply him, so I just said I wasn't feeling well. Then he told me to go sleep. I was surprised.. I didn't expect him to be such a nice person :/
Then xielaoshi asked if I was ok, so I said "that thing.. very pain.." LOL. She asked if it was the stomach, and if I needed to go general office. I said no. I didn't want to miss any lessons because of this stupid thing lah. Hui Han, it must have been worse for you coz yours was the whole day..
For physics, we were supposed to wait for Mr Hong outside the physics lab. The lack of air-con there alleviated my pains A LOT, but it was still so painful that I had to sit on the steps coz standing up was a chore in itself. Luckily he didn't come.. I can't imagine bouncing tennis balls with my back and stomach about to break. Or worse still, telling him about the reason for my pain.
Fortunately during ACE, the pain went away yay! Could sit up ^^ and yeah, I was able to go for band. Like thankfully :)
The only good thing was the Math Pop Quiz. I was predicting to be killed, coz I was doing math on thurs night and realized that there were still a lot of sums I didn't know how to do. However, it turned out to be like, 3 questions in half an hour! And those questions were zomgosh how to say.. freaking easy. I finished in around 5-10 min. Slacked around for the remaining time. Reminds me of primary school test.. everytime finish liao still got a lot of time left. If only the actual CT can be as easy.. but sadly, don't think it's possible though ): SUPER HENG, my pain hadn't set in then. If not I might not have been able to do the quiz at all!
Super relieved, didn't vomit yesteday :) last time mine was quite bad lah, vomit up to 3 times a day. Vomit once very good liao..
***
Today was LA filming at Si Jin's house. All we did was a bit of the montage :( quite unproductive huh. And I tried playing her sis' violin. Felt so light and fragile compared to my cello that I was apprehensive at first : luckily I managed to tune it without breaking the string XD
And I didn't know Si Jin and Steffi could strum the guitar so well! Sounds quite nice lah, but given a choice, I still won't learn guitar. For some reason, guitar has never really appealed to me.
Then had piano lesson, followed by tuition. And for the first time, my hamster got pissed with my tutor (who is supposed to be her favourite person) LOLOLOL. Super funny.
4 tests down, more than 5 more to go. Don't want to count the exact number for fear that I'll end up scaring myself :
Now is 11.32pm and I still have yet to understand physics and practice my cello. Bleh!
***
Sometimes I seriously wonder if I'm taking on too many things. Triple science, MEP, HSSRP, 2 instruments (inclusive of a piano diploma) and all the other what-nots. Bleh I really don't think I can cope. To be honest, I haven't been making time to go to church, which is supposed to be my first priority?!?!
Really feel like giving up some commitments, but I only have this one chance to do well for all the tasks and opportunities I've been given. I believe I've screwed up more than enough when I was younger; it's time to undo the damage and work even harder to make up for all that I've lost.
Haha, Valencia's Triple S. For me, it's:
Stress, Sian, Sickened. Got a lot more actually lah.
SWO concert tomorrow night :) But I wonder if I really should go, considering the amount of tests I have to conquer :/ not that I don't want to support SWO arh!!
My marks are at stake, so my future is at stake too.
And I'm still here blogging -.-
***
While on the way to piano lesson just now, I was thinking about a particular conversation and a lot of other things that have been happening lately. I wonder if I'm hypocritical, trying to believe that things are going fine when they're far from it. Or am I just over-sensitive?
Maybe things are as bad as what others think they are; maybe even worse. Or maybe there has been too much speculation :/ it's depressing and energy-draining to think about this kind of thing. It saps all my energy I should be investing into my work.
But I can't close one eye forever!
And I can't ignore problems forever!
They will just blow up one day and become too difficult for anyone to handle. Much as I would like to run away and pretend my life is fine, I wonder how long would I be able to do that. Seriously, I think I've grown to be VERY suspicious. I don't trust a single soul anymore!
But then again, I don't want to pity myself for living a crap life. In the first place, it's not exactly very nice to believe you're living a crap life -.-
It's pretty hard I admit : bleh, just have to put on a mask and fight whatever battle that has been presented to me.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Saturday, July 12, 2008
lessons have officially started, and things look like they're a change for the worse.
damn.
i was so pissed and upset that i didn't want to eat lunch ystd, and went to slp at 10pm even though i wans't tired at all. k fine i didn't slp early in the end. spent time praying, hitting/pjnching myself & crying. funny how and why bad things ALWAYS happen to the good people. Lord, i fear.
damn.
i was so pissed and upset that i didn't want to eat lunch ystd, and went to slp at 10pm even though i wans't tired at all. k fine i didn't slp early in the end. spent time praying, hitting/pjnching myself & crying. funny how and why bad things ALWAYS happen to the good people. Lord, i fear.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
In a MSN convo earlier tonight, I came across some food for thought when my friend and I were talking about Doomsday 2012 (or rather, the Rapture):
Friend: Why should you be scared?
Me: Why should you not be scared?
Friend: Because I have a God who loves me. No matter what I do, He will still love me. When I die, I know He will still take care of me. :D
Yeah, I find this statement true. If we love and fear God wholeheartedly, we have nothing to fear, not even the fearful Rapture.
Praise the Lord :D
It's a wonder how God works through everyday life in the most unexpected scenarios. I didn't imagine He would speak to me through my friend in something as simple and mundane as an MSN convo. But He did.
Thank you God for sharing this important message with me when I least expected it :) Amen.
Friend: Why should you be scared?
Me: Why should you not be scared?
Friend: Because I have a God who loves me. No matter what I do, He will still love me. When I die, I know He will still take care of me. :D
Yeah, I find this statement true. If we love and fear God wholeheartedly, we have nothing to fear, not even the fearful Rapture.
Praise the Lord :D
It's a wonder how God works through everyday life in the most unexpected scenarios. I didn't imagine He would speak to me through my friend in something as simple and mundane as an MSN convo. But He did.
Thank you God for sharing this important message with me when I least expected it :) Amen.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
yay i read 'the bait of satan'.. was a nice book, but not as powerfil as choo thomas' 'heaven is so real' though :D
i try to tell myself to forgive you. but i really can't stand your attitude; you always think you're always right. yea right, i am always wrong too. for some reason.
oh, ahd it's your fault your $30++ umbrella got spoiled. if you didn't use it to hit me, it would still be in perfect working condition. oh well, just to bad for you.
colossians 3:21: "parents, do not exasperate your children, or they will become discouraged." maybe the reason why everyone seems to think i'm cynical and coldhearted is REALLY all thanks to you.
what shit lah.
i'm sorry if i hurt you in any way. but thank God for bringing you into my life. ily-x3
'the bait of satan' was quite a meaningful book. oh, and the vision.
3H sales was not bad: we raised about $200 today! ^^ except i came home like SUPER late lah. sian. must send yanci my part for the ppt and still haven't really started doing yet, bleh. sorry..
hope tmr will be a better day for all, and good luck with IDMI presentation on thurs! (:
i try to tell myself to forgive you. but i really can't stand your attitude; you always think you're always right. yea right, i am always wrong too. for some reason.
oh, ahd it's your fault your $30++ umbrella got spoiled. if you didn't use it to hit me, it would still be in perfect working condition. oh well, just to bad for you.
colossians 3:21: "parents, do not exasperate your children, or they will become discouraged." maybe the reason why everyone seems to think i'm cynical and coldhearted is REALLY all thanks to you.
what shit lah.
***
thank you for talking to me today. it made me happy, though i think i am emo again :( anyway thanks lots for all the things you've done for me, regardless of whether they were done intentionally or not,
i will never forget that time we almost quarelled. i was emo for 1 whole night; that is, until i somehow managed to fall asleep (k i always do in the end -.- ) the next day, i didn't know if you were willing to talk to me or not. but you did--and thus understood me in a way that few others have ever done so.i'm sorry if i hurt you in any way. but thank God for bringing you into my life. ily-x3
'the bait of satan' was quite a meaningful book. oh, and the vision.
3H sales was not bad: we raised about $200 today! ^^ except i came home like SUPER late lah. sian. must send yanci my part for the ppt and still haven't really started doing yet, bleh. sorry..
hope tmr will be a better day for all, and good luck with IDMI presentation on thurs! (:
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