What. The. Fuck.

Is it wrong to want to achieve more?

Haiz.. was talking to someone yesterday. It was a meaningful conversation, but left me feeling very emo :( we argued, but didn't quarrel, but that's not the point. I realized that my experiences have left me with perceptions that contribute to my value system today. And as a person, as a Christian, perhaps what I believe in isn't exactly ideal?

I seriously felt like crying, but thankfully, no tears (: maybe that person is right. Maybe I should embrace change. Maybe that's what is hindering me.

I don't know what to do.

Hmm school has just started and lessons will be pretty (or rather, very) hiong this year I guess.

Lisha is stressed :(


1. Drawing magnetic field lines is fun I guess :) hope my lousy art doesn't pull me down! (I can only draw stick figures decently leh)

2. Mr Ng told us (right-handers) to practice drawing with our left hand everyday, which is supposed to help our intonation and musical sensivity. As I am practically 100% left-brained, I guess I really need to do this! If not I shall flop indoor test, SYF, ARSM Dip etcetc.. CHOY!

3. I MUST IMPROVE MY GPA. Even if it means sleeping @ 2am and waking up @ 6am even on weekends. (But given my pathetique standard of self-discipline, I'll prolly wake up @ 10am -.-)

4. I am confused, as seen from my MSN nick.

5. I need to practice my math, if not I won't be able to follow Mr Yap in class. Matrices are quite confusing T_T in short, I need to STUDY NOWWW.

6. This is the first year I'm having a guy (Mr Jeffery Ng) as my form teacher. Haha ok random. He's nice lah.

7. The above point does not mean that I (or rather, we) won't miss Ms Low.. (P.s. I hope she invites us to her house to eat again lolololol) xD

8. I MUST NOT flop my internal exams & O-levels (HCL and MEP). 1 flop and I guess I'm done for.

9. Needa do something about my spiritual growth. ><

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Ok I shall post my New Year's Resolutions here, but only briefly in case the information falls into the wrong hands. I wanna get better grades, become more musically inclined (i.e. stop going out of tune T_T be more sensitive, better technique/interpretation), acquire more values (self-discipline, diligence, no more procrastination etc) and become a better Christian. I guess yall should know what I mean. But it's hard :/ sighhh..

And I've gained some weight during the holidays. HALLELUJAH.

Which means I needa exercise to shed off the extra kilos. :(

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Yep that's all for now, bye :)

Hey.. orientation was really tiring today!! Was practically running all over Singapore & my legs are still aching D: but it was really fun! Coz it was the first time we went on an excursion (?) without the usual school bus and teachers accompanying us and whatnots. Just 2 facils and 11 of us. Plus, there was all that calorie-burning (I hope) :D hopefully it burned away my KFC lunch too! Was on the verge of indigestion after eating.. my stomach is just so picky I guess.

And I realized that I stained my brand-new bag with JUICE!!! ARGH. Luckily it's dark green and stained at the bottom so it's not really obvious. But I hope a trail of ants don't get attracted to it leh. Haven't got time to wash it coz was busy touching up MEP, and the juice stinks I tell you. :(

Then went for band. I like the new sectionals rooms; they're air-conditioned with nice carpets and soundproof walls! And blur Ruonan wore her shoes inside for damn long, only to get laughed at by the rest of us T_T The next indoor will be on 16th jan, I hope I can be prepared in time. Band again tmr.. dry run for CCA Orientation and hopefully I get to self-prac too. MY SKILLS ARE DETETIORIATING FASTER THAN THE SPEED OF LIGHT AHHH... I bet Mr Ng realized this too D:

Ok, need to send out my MEP Essay Proposal and then go to sleep -- something which I have been craving for since today's Street Chase!

Goodnight, everyone! :D

Hello people.. have not been posting here for very long. I doubt anyone even comes here to look at this dead blog.

Well I guess I have been in a pensieve mood for the past few weeks.. too many things on my plate and I just don't feel like telling others about it or even consider the thought of becoming a social butterfly. Hmm maybe I should just take a life retreat -- handle everything slowly and calmly until I've gained my sanity back.

School reopened two days ago, and I must say it's nice to see 3H'08 again, or rather 4H'09. Been ages since I last contacted/saw any of them. But the sad thing is that Ms Low is not our form teacher anymore; she isn't even our Math teacher!!! Bleh I bet many people will miss her, including myself ): but Mr Ng seems like a nice form teacher anyway, so I guess I shall just look on the bright side :) hahahahaha.

Thought of doing a post to sum up 2008, but the year has been so interesting and colourful that it would take a longggg blog post to sum up everything, thus I shall not bother about it. All I can say is that I guess I've matured over the past year, met lots of impactful people and experiences and changed my perspective of life by quite a fair bit. Although yeah, I've still retained many aspects of my personality. But I know that God intends all these changes -- regardless of whether they were painful or pleasant -- for the best, so I'm glad to have a Dad who cares for me all the way. :D

Lastly, Charismatic or Methodist -- which is better? I don't know. God, give me a sign! *worried*