wth i am like super pissed off now...

you're not me, and so you don't understand me. so please stop telling me what to do and dictating me for every single step of my life. for goodness' sake. i everyday hear your voice not sian then something wrong liao. haha. seriously. don't you find yourself bloody annoying and irritating? or are you merely trying to develop potential in the area of pissing me off? yeah maybe. i think you have LOTS of potential in that area man. everyday practice dunno how many times.

today return math pop quiz. ms low said a lot of people lack practice. i think you have too much practice luhh. until when you say the first word i can imagine what you are going to say. and my ears threaten to burst.

for some reason, you have to have things your way lol. haven't you thought of those who may not always see eye-to-eye with you? do you think those people are nonexistent? or are they just worthy to be condemned coz only you are right, only your opinions are worth to be the food for thought of others? i may not be the most open-minded person around, but at least i know that different people do and perceive things differently. and you, who always complain how rigid i am, should know this basic, simple logic even more right. ugh.

when i think about it, half of me wants to puke. the other half of me just goes -.-


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anyway, as i was saying, we got back math pop quiz today. quite relieved that i managed to scrape my mark, although it was lower than what i'd expected. i could have gotten full marks, just that i forgot to square something in the 'complete the square' question. so i was penalized by quite a lot -.-

i'm very, very scared for math CT3 and chem test!!! my chem was just a borderline pass the last time, and when i think about my math CT2 results, i get damn demoralized can. T_T i dunno if i can regain my confidence in the forseeable future. (FYI, i dare not bring it home yet leh. same goes for LA, history, chinese, chem and physics.) hope everyone can scrape through those tests, at least better than last round!

oh, and we got back history test yesterday. i think i got second lowest in class or something: i failed. uhh please. i think mrs tan marks very leniently leh, but i still get penalized like crap >.< when i told valencia my mark, she was like O.O visibly shocked. yes i am too. it sucks ok. and i know that if i show my parents, they will be _______, coz they think i'm more humanities-inclined and therefore should ace history. i dunno why, but i just can't.

i realized that in upper sec, people only ace tests coz of their natural ability/strong foundation/luck. some subjects hor.. no matter how hard you try, just cannot do. so demoralizing. in sec 1-2, i thought it would be better to take history instead of geog coz it seemed easier to score. now, i wonder if it was the right decision after all...

anyway, nvm lah. ppl, remind me to drop this freaking subject after yr 4! ^^


i hate bio (can't complete all the stuffs)
i hate my carelessness
i hate chemistry
i hate physics
i hate history
i hate LA
I HATE CHINESE (xielaoshi is nice though =) )
I HATE MY GRADES!

walao so bad, i complain so much >.< like how many ppl out there are so much less fortunate than i am, yet i take for granted all the privileges i have.

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LA compre test today. last fri was the 14 questions, today was summary. i hope i included most of the points in (can't hope for all luhh) and rephrased my words well enough to appease ms yeo (: aiya.. but anyway for LA, it's quite hard to study for. even ms yeo also say cannot study. now there's another excuse for slacking xD

i was quite rushed. coz i realize got too many words. so i was like cancelling here and there until my whole paper so messy (oh no, this reminds me of the screwed-up chem prac >< ) ahh whatever. what's done is done! must study for math, chem and bio, even though i think i will flop, especially for chem and bio. ugh. but at least i can say that i tried my best right.

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oh yes, yesterday we had a very unusual assembly. ms lin invited some rock band (i can only remember the name was jack something, and that 1 of the members is an ex-dunmanian). she said they are a "very controversial music group" LOL. anyway, i thought it was going to be something like black eyed peas or linkin park.

only to realize (prepare yourself for this):
1. they imitated elvis presley (either they love the history of rock music or are very updated about the current music trends).
2. i admire their intonation.. the lead singer was shouting rather than singing.. can shouting ever be in tune? :/ (i don't think i have perfect pitch, but obviously you don't need any musical knowledge to know how well they sang -.- )
3. i believe i wasn't the only one who was on the verge of getting a splitting headache. (the drum sets & guitar & "singing" etc was... well...)
4. RIP to the massive number of yr 3/4 dunmanians who were dying of boredom.
5. the greatest pleasure of all was still to have 1 solid hour of daydreaming and stoning.. wanting to be in dreamland, yet dare not fall asleep.

was so bored that i started doing something illegal there... initially i was afraid of getting caught, but my fears gradually diminished.

LOL.

kk bye for now! :)