Back from hiatus.. early

yup i know i said i will be going on hiatus until the end of term 1, but not having a place to vent my frustrations freely makes me feel like.. bleh :( lack of self-discipline lah i know. haha.

scanning/ printing out an extra copy of SBT now, since just now suddenly want to use then dunno who packed the cupboards so at first a lot of SLs (including me)were damn scared coz we thought we couldn't find. thank God i managed to find a copy!! but it was really torn and tattered =( practically falling apart. so i think i will send it for rebinding, and make an extra copy just in case!

school work has been piling up. got back the HCL test, and i totally flunked the cheng yu and cloze component.. i think i got the lowest in class! T.T omgosh. was damn malu ok! some more with that imba hang yin beside me.. this is damn damn damn demoralizing. i dun think i want to show my parents/tutor this paper until i gotten back the comprehension component, which i hopefully did better in. haiz. i guess i'm just not born to be good in chinese.

my printer is so sloww.. i am only printing out the cover page now!! tsktsktsk.. hurry up! ok yay it's done ^^ scanning the contents page now. it better be completed quickly.

anyway, it's been pretty emo nowadays. yes i know tt i may joke, laugh and crap (maybe a bit too much) but you guys probably dun realize tt this is to conceal whatever tt is inside. today was a good example. when we were walking to the chem lab, i was laughing like siao coz of __________, and glada commented tt i have "childlike laughter". hahahahaha. tt is, until i told her what i was laughing about. LOL. but later tt afternoon, reality suddenly started to crash in on me. dunno why suddenly so emo leh =/ i began questioning myself my purpose in life. who am i? what am i? i'm not as happy as what you all perceive me to be from my cheerful exterior. i guess i'm just trying to put on a brave front.

haha, but i dun cry at night just before sleeping lah :) i guess it'll be alright after awhile. anyway, the most genuine tears are often the tears tt cannot be seen, right? and crying only makes you wallow in self-pity, which i think is not very useful coz life has to go on. no point emo-ing about things in the past. look towards the present and future and continue running the race of life =)

i really miss RGPS 5F'04/ 6F'05, and everthing else tt happened to me within tt time!! those two years taught me a lot of things. it helped me to grow, not just in terms of academics. it gave me a whole new horizon of life's perspectives. it helped me to be one step closer to reach my goal of touching lives, and i hope i did. it helped me to uncover my life's purpose. it helped me to be useful not just to myself, but also to those around me. i know i had made many mistakes during those two years, some of which were pretty serious i guess >.< but then again, those mistakes helped me to reflect on the aspects of my life which could be better, and ultimately helped me to learn. ppl may think that i wasted a lot of time engaging in "free labour", but then again, i picked up invaluable lessons of life i would otherwise never have been able to gain access to. anyway, i had lots of fun in the process, which was very different from the politically-correct ideas of "fun" :)

though i may have took things for granted back then, on hindsight, i realize that was the happiest period of my life.
without those times, i dun think i would have what i have now.
my life would have been very different.

but it's all over, it's all over...
i really miss those times :' (
i don't think they will ever be presented to me again, at least not in the forseeable future...
all i have are just some souvenirs from the past... oh, and a ton of fond memories.
i promise i'll treasure whatever i have left <3
so, to whoever is reading this, treasure even the most mundane things you have now. because you will never known when it will be taken away from you, and by then it will be too late.

yup, since this is a public blog, i shall not emo too freely. but i feel like i have been living the wrong life. i've been living a lie for very long i suppose. and i really want to face up to the truth.

-liking the wrong subject(s).. only realizing this misconception thanks to ms low, my form tchr. without her, my sec 3 life wouldn't have been so wonderful so far =)
-being too "open" about things.. i realize tt i must learn to be more discreet and secretive, regardless of who i am interacting with.
-been to submissive, to the extent that it has affected areas of my life tt i can't control. true, putting up too strong a resistance against ppl of the highest authority when you are only 12/13/14 years old is never easy. but had i known what detrimental effects this "mental weakness" would bring about, standing firm and resolute to my decisions would have been so much more worthwhile.

i took up a lot of time to write this post, but it has helped me understand things so much more. it's been a very fruitful 10-15min blogging.. the investment of a few min can't compare to what i just took back.

i musn't emo, i musn't emo...
life is not about thinking of the past. it is about living the present, and looking towards the future.
only then, can you really run the race of life.

yo ppl :) hope y'all had a good CNY and were paid reasonably well in exchange for all the crap you've had to endure.. all the "wah so big already arh!", "wah you must jump more than can grow taller!" etc.

anyway, here's a joke about this: your relatives talk the same old crap to you, saying "wah so big already arh!" year after year. so finally, you couldn't stand it. instead of just smiling in hypocrisy, you tell them "wah you are so old already, you have one foot in the grave!" xDD ok, before you go round shooting your mouths off at your irritating relatives, just one word of caution: i tell you this joke doesn't mean you really go tell all your relatives that arh. if you do, i can't assure you wad you will become.

and, i will be going on hiatus (i hope) until this term is over! considering the meagre amount of ppl who actually visit this blog, and the amount of time left until the march holidays, i don't think there will be that many detrimental effects. just wanna concentrate more on my studies and not waste any more time blogging! my marks are sucky enough as they are. but dun worry, i will be coming to check the tags lah, so pls tag here as per normal :) thx alot.

bye for now! going off to enjoy the rest of my CNY hols!
<3

just came back from reunion dinner at my paternal grandparents' house. drank red wine (just for fun) and contrary to what i thought, the wine was kinda strong for me and as a result i am so sleepy now T.T

yesterday's MEP lesson was uhm.. freaky. ms lin assigned us partners for composition lah.. supposedly to 'complement each other'. yes this arrangement is permanent. and my partner is *drum roll* ALEX!! omgosh. i was like staring at her for one whole min while everyone else was having the same O.O reaction lah. but i still count myself more blessed than huihan, who was blessed with YANG SHEN. i think huihan and i are totally incompatible with our partners lor.

since ms lin was having lesson in the digital arts studio and we, the 1st class, had to do composition with our partners for the 1st half of the lesson, we went to the music room next door. so like duh, we were slacking.. chatting, playing the piano, eating, doing hw etc. then later alex and yang shen decided to do pumping (and clapping) lol! but the most O.O part was when ms lin suddenly came in, uninvited and unannounced, catching them in the midst of their pumping. she said something like," what has this got to do with music?" then they say they finish liao. so she said," you sure?" and since they said yes, we had to WRITE CHORDS LAH!! argh. i hope mine were correct.. i just dun understand it, especially since i've not touched ABRSM theory since i was p6. hmmm.

anyway, today was the highlight of my week so far! went to city hall to meet my LA group - theresa, hang yin, si jin, steffi and joshua - for discussion. hang yin came later coz of piano lesson. at first we were at HMV, wondering where to go to discuss, even though we thought of going to burger king yesterday. so we walked to esplanade then to marina. eh tt machine in the underpass from citylink to esplanade is freaky ok!! you hear for too long confirm start laughing one -.-

so anyway we decided on starbucks lah. and what was totally retarded was that me, who thought starbucks is expensive, ordered an americano expresso (i need caffeine hor) for $4. i was thinking, wow, this is a good deal, i get to save $1++ as compared to the rest of my group. then when i tasted it, IT WAS EXACTLY LIKE KOPI-O POK KOSONG!!! wasted my 4 bucks lah.. could have gotten it at a hawker centre at 60 cents -.=" and i felt that we made the most progress today as compared to the rest of the days when we meet up during free periods or something - in those circumstances, we would either ** ***** **** (no obsession kay!!), do hw or just crap. ok lah, maybe we would think of a storyline, but not as much. maybe without the distractions of hw etc, we can get a lot more work done. whatever it is, i feel so accomplished now! ^^ anyway now it's all thought of liao YAY.

after hang yin came, steffi and si jin said they wanted to go toilet, so i went with them and we had a good long talk.. about some stuff which isn't particularly convenient to mention here. so after we came back from the toilet, hang yin had already ordered cranberry juice (o.O isn't tt very sour?) and dunno is it we laugh to hard or something then si jin's tea spilled.. "no point crying over spilt TEA." xDD on another occasion, joshua's cover dropped lah. i think we dirtied starbucks leh =/ but as steffi said, probably the only reason why they didn't chase us out was coz they made about $30 from us today. (each person spent about an average of $5.) starbucks seems to enjoy being a place to host project discussions hor. ok lah, hopefully we get to go there more often for LA discussions!

even though i thought we would end at 4++ (with outstanding work, but since everyone has to rush back for reunion dinner so yeah), we ended at 1++pm! congrats :) then joshua left.. so the 5 of us went to yoshinoya for lunch. previously i didn't know there was such a thing called STUDENT'S MEAL.. ok, i know i am very lag lah!! i used to think tt yoshinoya was very ex.. at least now i finally realized it's affordable yay! and i saw SARAH CHUA.. my pri school friend! it's nice seeing someone from your past who has gone a separate way, even though it may have just been a quick "hi" and "bye". i thought she would go back to RGPS.. i wanted to go back ok!! but apparently LA project is more important and urgent so yeah.. will try to go back on tchrs day lah, if anyone is going back at all =/

after tt we went for retail therapy.. ok lah, window retail therapy, since we didn't buy anything at all! so guai right xD actually no lah, coz we no money mah T.T next time i go out for an LA group discussion, must remember to bring at least $30-$40 for impromptu shopping trips! oh, and i need to save up to start buying birthday gifts for friends. yah, come to think of it, this should be one of my new yr resolutions for chinese new year. it is better to give than to receive, anyway =)

then went back to HMV and i left at about 2.30-2.45pm. met my mum at westmall to finish my CNY shopping, coz previously i only bought blouses, so at least today i bought pants! but it's like $48++ leh.. clothes seem to be getting more and more expensive nowadays. must buy less clothes, then can save my parents' money! haha.

happy CNY everyone! forget about all your troubles for the next few days as you receive your money and meet up with your relatives and eat all the CNY goodies (until kena sore throat) and indulge in the festive season! as for all the irritating aunties/uncles who never fail to exclaim over-dramatically at how tall and big you've become, i not so sure wad to do leh.. sorry. i guess we should just keep quiet, or maybe talk minimal crap to them just to satisfy them LOL. when i tell my mum about how annoying they are (ugh) she says tt their generation is like tt. ok.. just hope tt i dun become one of them when i reach their age! hahahaha.

happy CNY, once again! may everyone lead a fulfilling shu nian!
<3

yay! there's no school tmr coz of the outstanding O-level results! ^^ anyway there's LA meeting at city hall tmr, so there's a bit of excitement added to my otherwise dull and boring life. school has been increasingly hectic.. we just had a physics test today, and there will be tests like, every week?!?! sec 3 is so much worse than sec 2, my 'honeymoon' year. haha. wonder how all the seniors managed to get through it, and pass their exams with flying colours..
even if you can control me, obviously you can't control other people right. just because you're used to having your way in the courtroom doesn't mean that you can always have your way outside it. sometimes i wonder how you act in front of other lawyers who are your opponents in the court cases.
if you people don't know who i am talking about, nvm. but then again, it's pretty obvious lah.
突然想用华文。。
虽然我在家通常不讲华语，但自从我来到了德明后，我发现了华语的重要性：
这几天以来，我一直在想，自己到底是谁？我发现，原来我，苏俐杉，不是你们这些人以为的，也不是自己以为的自己。不明白，不了解，为什么。。。
原来生活是那么负杂的。。
在这个新年里，我希望能够把生活调理一下，过得好一些。
祝大家新年快乐，学业进步！
(:
i'm so sick of this.

why was it that when i typed a super long post, it just couldn't be published, and so i have to write a new one? argh. i can't be bothered to retype everything out again.
my hamster died today.. but i dun feel sad. no point lah, what's done is DONE! i have loved and cared for him as an owner, and now that he's dead, it's time to move on.
school is getting more and more imba these days. my math test: 8.5/12. not very good lah =/ but the part that pisses me off the most is that i made a careless mistake.. if not i could have gotten 10.5/12, which is more acceptable lah. but i feel very guilty.. ms low gave us so much, and i can't even repay her kindness in terms of my math results. and it's not even as if those questions were completely foreign.
I HATE LA. yep, ms yeo has been doing a great job in ensuring that the LA welfare of 3H has been pretty good, and i do think she's a good teacher. however, i just don't think LA is my cup of tea. no offence, anybody! :)
i wonder what subject person am i leh. a lot of people (including my parents) think i am a language person, but then again, i dun have the creativity or passion to churn out good essays. i prefer math to shakespeare haha.. and for some reason, creative writing can't give me the satisfaction i derive from math. mr sng said in a speech a few days ago that the adolescent years is when we start to question who we really are. i dun think i'm much of an LA person after all. and i'm not as good in it as what other people think.. i know myself best, right. my blog posts happen to be long coz i'm either very pissed off, or excited to reminiscise about my day with 3H. under normal cirsumstances, i dun write such long posts.. although i DO notice that my posts have been longer LOL. i think i'm beginning to talk more both online and in real life.
ok, better stop here now. got lots of things to do, and i'm very sleepy now. sian arh.
bye :)

math was shit. feeling damn apprehensive about it, dun even know whether i can pass or not, let alone get at least 80%. maybe i should have studied more, i mean, we've seen those kind of questions before right? sigh. the test was for like only 20min, and 5 questions!! T_T and to make things worse, when time was already running out, ms low said "4 more mins" then i began panicking like SIAO ok!! as a result, my mind went blank and i couldn't do anything anymore, even though under normal circumstances i think i would be able to.

why are some people born with natural math talent while others are math noobs no matter how hard they try not to be one? maybe i'm just not born to be good at math. and i was so upset and stressed out over the quiz tt for practically 1 period, i was like stoning and lamenting to hang yin about my zero IQ. (thanks hang yin for listening to all my crap even though it was a waste of time and you could have used the time to do something more profitable! :) ) she told me dun stress myself, tt kind of thing lah, but it's not as if i want to stress myself in the 1st place. to me, marks are tt important. especially a useful, core subject like math.

sigh.

confusion

i really dunno what to do these days. so many things to do, yet so little time and motivation to do them. i feel torn between so many worlds - i really don't know what is best for me. people would say tt this is just teenage angst; everyone goes through them. but sometimes i just feel like it's going to kill me anytime. and someone who keeps pestering me whether there is anything to hand up tmr is REALLY IRRITATING. &*^&(^%Y*%. CAN YOU PLEASE ACCEPT AND UNDERSTAND THE FACT THAT I HATE BUSYBODIES?!?! ugh. been feeling pretty pissed off these few days. but it's not like i'd tell many ppl about it.. not that i dun trust anyone, but since i'm a complete sucker for sharing emotions, i prefer bottling everything inside and just wait for it to go away.

***

i'm sorry but i have to let everything out here.

i'm really sick and tired of all this shit. all my life, i've been doing things to make YOU happy. you guys have always dominated my life, so that my likes/dislikes/interests/dreams become yours, and there's practically nothing left for me to call my very own. i dun even feel comfortable around you anymore! you claim you love me and care for me so if there's anything wrong you'll always be here for me. but everytime i try to tell you about what i TRULY feel, you'll be angry and say something like "SHUT UP!", "don't talk crap to me", "we've discussed it already, i don't wish to repeat myself" or, "you have no right to be angry." what the hell. you think that since i was once a toddler means i'm a toddler forever is it -.- you don't realize that you must expect different levels of submissiveness from toddlers and teenagers. i find you shockingly domineering and controlling. it's like, i dun even have any breathing space at all! i feel trapped.. within the confines of my own home. my home, a place supposed to be filled with warmth, care and security, has now only been demolished to a place where i eat, sleep, bathe and study in. talk about what care and security. unless you're referring to the lack of security without a roof over your head lah, that is.

i'm still very pissed about many matters which have supposedly "closed" years ago. i feel as though i'm living my life for the two of you.. which is retarded, coz IT'S MY LIFE. MY LIFE, not YOURS. if you've made some success over it, then i wouldn't mind.. i would trust you anyway wad. however, time and again, you screw up all my plans, hopes and strategies for a better future. if i were to make my own decisions, whether it turns out well or not, i'm fully responsible for it. but if YOU make MY decisions, if it turns out well, the credit will partially go to me, partially to you. (if the consequences are desirable then i wouldn't mind sharing the credit.) but if it turns out badly (like it almost always does), i'm SOLELY HELD ACCOUNTABLE. held accountable, even though i had no choice but to follow. held accountable, even though the decision wasn't made by me. then you will come and blame me, say that i'm never happy with what i have. of course not happy right, since i have nothing to be happy about with your decisions -.-

you say that you love me so much, you want me to succeed tts why you plan out my future for me. and i can't have a say because you're "so much older and have seen so much more of life than me". so yup. no self-made decisions, no happiness, ultimately no success, which brings about more unhappiness. when i'm pissed, you will say tt i like to make myself angry for no good reason, always like to roll my eyes, tts why my eyesight was good then now detioriated, tts why i got migraine. then still say what "when everybody is achieving success, you will be in the operating room. no amount of money can replace you being in the operating room." then will proceed to tell me about the horrors of it. (dun want to type here coz i lazy xD )

when i show signs of irritation and hint to you that you don't deserve to take 200% control of my life, you will say," then dun come and complain tt you dun get the success you want." like duh, of course i dun! coz you always come and ruin my plans. you dun realize that i know myself best, you barely know me coz i won't reveal my character to you.. just because you gave birth to me or you hope i'll take after your genes or some bullshit you know me much better than i know myself. how many dreams i had to part with in order to make you happy! i know i have lost my sense of self in the process. but do you care? NO! you never care about feelings.. if you do it's only your own. i never get a say in my everyday affairs. people have advised me, time and again, to sit down and have a good talk with you guys. ok lah, talk then talk lor. but the problem is, will you think it IS a problem that has to be addressed, or me showing some attitude problem? we both know the answer, dun we?

and you. you say that whatever i do must lead me to a trophy, so dun waste time doing things that dun. yet, you tell me that this kind of do-things-which-will-lead-me-to-a-common-benefit mentality is too singaporean. ugh. dun you realize you are just contradicting yourself? never mind if those areas are what i'm truly passionate in! never mind that those things are just as important to me as academics! never mind that those things are a measure of my self-worth! never mind lah, coz only your opinions matter, right? i know you will agree.

people think that whenever i have a problem (including those with you), i can always tell them. so they may be wondering, why dun you share it with someone then?

and it's such a simple question.

ugh. i wonder when this will end.

wah stupid stupid stupid -.- i received the damn msn virus thrice today. 1st time was from meera, my pri school friend.. when i saw my email at the file i go open.. then found out it was a virus. by then too late liao.. invaded my whole msn and automatically go send to my contacts without my knowledge and control. the 2nd and 3rd time was from joshua.. he claim i go send to him then it go send to all his contacts. ran the antivirus for dunno how many times liao.. and delayed my history group (sorry!) argh. now is 12.57am and there's still the speech to write.. thankfully, jin jia did quite a lot liao :) i damn tired.. for the past few days, i slept a grand total of 9 HOURS!

imba LOL.

hi. yay sian sian sian! i really hope emperor can come along fine.

rahh. i will never dare to touch sodium hydroxide ever again in my entire life.

so retarded. i got burnt by it today..

coz during chem lesson, we were doing chem experiments, and my NaOH bottle apparently was leaking (but i didn't dare to screw it tightly in case i got burnt), so i just poured and.. OWW! (i think i screamed very loudly leh. >.< )

so went to rinse my hand under running water and called the teacher.. then she gave me first aid O.O thanks steffi, ei leen, felise and cheng ting etc for their help! :D just now when i was bathing, it started stinging again.. oww. nvm lah, tchr said it should be ok within 2 days, so i take it as a definite yes =D

should go eat my dinner now, then clear up my math holiday homework coz it's due tmr and i don't exactly have very little left! (Appalling LOL.)

feel damn retarded now

so demoralizing..

should i or should i not? i know i'm unprepared, but golden opportunities only come once in a lifetime.

kinda emo.. coz wad ms lin said, after all, is true.

but then again, i can't back out now, can i?

in such a dilemma now.. both ways are equally enticing

i really don't know what's best

i couldn't concentrate during math lesson coz of this..

you guys probably didn't know what i was thinking.. but thanks for cheering me up (unconsciously) with all the crap and laughter :)

and for awhile, i really forgot all about it..

but then, it stupidly chose to come back =(

went to RGS for the HSSRP briefing today

mdm nora drove me there (wow) and i sat there in her car feeling so paiseh..

coz the 2 of us were the only ones there =/

but she was nice.. she offered to drop me off somewhere after the briefing (:

but my dad was already picking me up so i didn't go.

i saw phyllis at the briefing!! she's my pri sch friend!! =D

then we kept laughing and laughing during the briefing..

then there was this group of guys who went to present their proposal..

one of them was standing straight, BUT his butt was sticking out -.-

we all were sniggering.. i hope we didn't laugh too loudly xD

right now her msn nick is "it isnt alright if you stand real straight with your butt sticking out you know" LOL!

then there was this girl.. she kept applying dunno wad lipstick or lip gloss or something in plain view of everyone.. when the speaker was speaking

so disrespectful huh =.=

we sniggered at tt too xD

but the worst was this woman.. i shan't say anything about it here.. coz it's too err.. sick to be spoken on the internet anyway

the briefing was kinda boring.. but it was fun to see phyllis again LOL

but i wasn't thrilled about the ponning lessons part though.

missed chem test.. and i heard CME was funny.

arghh.

gtg now. bye

second post for the day. lol. i know my previous post sounded kinda cut off suddenly coz i was in a rush just now. but now i have time so i shall post properly.. actually i don't really have anything much to say except tt my sore throat still hasn't recovered. at least it was better than this afternoon when i was laughing and laughing and then all the phlegm came. then it was so difficult to talk but at least my voice wasn't so bad. so just now still can talk lah (:

popping fisherman's friend into my mouth now. i think i will finish the entire pack of 22 lozenges before tmr afternoon. stupid throat. i should thank the person who made me laugh and laugh by repeating the err.. sensitive subject with perfect knowledge of the consequences. i know i laughed like crazy in class today. LOL. well now i guess i'm reaping the fruits of my labour =/

discussing hist project now. damn tired from just now.. all the laughing and supposedly 7 periods of MEP. luckily ms lin was nice and let us off at 5.11pm when dismissal was supposed to be at 5.45pm. some more i was so desperate for fisherman's friend tt i ran over to ghim moh during lunch and came back within 15 min! argh. and i kept eating them during MEP. when i told ppl aboout how i got my sore throat, they were all like O.O.. well i'm feeling this way also!

ok, i guess i shall go do hist proj now.. quite short of time now. it's 10.48pm and i'm aiming to go to bed before 11.30 (quite unrealistic i know. haha). anyway, gtg now. bb =)

hi ppl.. back for my 60th post (: thought i'd better post while i still can, before it's too late ;)
I LEARNT THE FOLLOWING INVALUABLE LESSONS IN SCHOOL!
1. russian churches are onion-shaped and symmetrical, supposed to resemble a candle flame.
2. you must never scold a russian tour guide in chinese because they can understand you.
3. LA film can be a satire if you want a comedy.
4. People can laugh until they have sore throat (like what happened to me today >.< )

commomwealth essay
emperor concerto
piano diploma
new standards in life
new academics standards
new CCA expectations
i do hope i actually make the best out of it and not screw it up >.<
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fatigue
stress
the harshness of reality sinking in
emo-ing
disappointment
wanting to seek solace through prayer to God
sianfied
doesn't know if what she's doing is right
doesn't know if she even knows what she's doing
tired.
very tired.
wanting to give up
yet wanting to press on
wants to learn how to persevere
yet acknowledges the inevitable fear and reality of burnouts
nervous breakdowns..? not true now.. and hopefully, forever
trying to push beyond the limits
yet knowing that some limits ARE limits.. God put them there for a purpose
biting off more than what can be chewed
crossing fingers so a failure will not be prevalent
something lurking at the back of the mind
yet not knowing what it was.. or why it was there
forget it. leave it alone
will work cause it to be forgotten?
it's retarded, but hey, maybe it works
commonwealth essay is crap after all.
homework to be done
life has to go on
yet still herer crapping like this
not knowing how
not knowing why.
untruthful,
unsure,
unconfident.
oh well. but it's all crap anyway.
***
sometimes life is all like this
watching people all leaving
watching silently, no goodbye, no tears
maybe that's what it's meant to be after all
unknown,
unidentified,
like a closed book.
ah well.
bye bye.
goodnight.
it is 11.29pm now
and there's school tomorrow.

haha. came back from school.. should be bathing by now but heck it, i wanna use the comp 1st :) wah for 12 days my CPU crashed, so i was thrilled when i got it back. then for the next 3 days my wireless network adapter crashed, so i could only use the comp again today. 15 days without internet.. can die man hahaha.

orientation's been great :) especially the leadership stuff. our new form teacher is ms low, and yep, i think she's nice.. she talks a lot. LOL. got to know quite a few new ppl too. 3H 08' has been fun so far, and i hope it will continue to be for the next 2 yrs! (like the way we forced ben to sing yue liang dai biao wo de xin.. haha.)

ok, feeling very tired now. dun feel like blogging anymore.

YAY! I GOT THE HSSRP MENTORSHIP!!!

hahaha.. waiting for the channel 8 7pm show to begin. so i guess i'm wasting time here by blogging AGAIN. LA's a killer ok.. the commonwealth essay topics are damn abstract can. wish they can let us choose the topics we want to write about, and judge us based on what we've written. argh. not all of us are blessed with the gift of creative writing, and even fewer of us are ideal candidates to be trained for creative writing.

seems like MEP A-levels is quite interesting hor? but then.. i think i will reject the offer when school starts. don't see much point in pursuing MEP to such a high level.. especially since i am NOT planning to study it in university, much less become a professional musician.

(Wish me luck for the emperor concerto k? (: i'm confused with the rhythm for some parts.. and it seems like i only have up till band camp to get the whole thing sorted out. i haven't even finished learning the 1st movement, and i tell you, the 2nd and 3rd movements are also very intimidating!! tchaikovsky no. 1 is worse anyway. haha.)

went out with eunice on tues.. we had great fun! aloe vera.. LOL.. and the neoprints! hope we can do tt again before this holiday ends!

have not arranged for sectionals at anyone's houses yet. ah well, elizabeth is away (: so i guess there's still time.

bye for now!

1. Your'ex'and You: He's nonexistent :D
2. I am listening to: a conversation that happens to be too loud.. but I can't hear clearly
3. Maybe I should: Do hw? prac piano? Build up my section? No, all these things are NOT should.. they're MUSTS.
4. I love: piano (:
5. I don't understand: much about life.. haha
7. I have lost my respect for: those who know me will know who that person is :)
8. I last ate: a banana
9. The meaning of my display name is: how sianned and pissed of I am.
10. God: exists.
11. Someday: I will realize that blogging is retarded.
12. I will always be: a geography-hater (but anyway I'm dropping it.. YAY!)(:1
3. Love seems to be: how I know -.-
14. I never ever want to lose: myself?
15. My myspace is: I don't have it
17. I get annoyed when: People assume they have the liscence to make my decisions.. UGH.
20. Simple Kisses: I dunno anything about them. LOL.
21. Today I: went to school for CCA.
22. I wish: my hw has been magically done, I have finished studying for next year, my section improves and becomes more bonded, I improve my piano playing and of course BETTER GRADES!!!(:
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Jia you. I hope we all can strive for a common goal, so as to achieve a brighter tomorrow. I really hope it can come true.

1. I'm freaking bored right now.
2. I'm terribly tired right now but can't sleep yet coz i must finish writing my scales for tmr.
3. Whole tone scales are guai lan.
4. I haven't progressed much for the piano concerto - a few bars after the 1st cadenza was all I've attempted so far.

5. I hate this year's LA homework (Commonwealth Essay) coz it's damn abstract can -.- sometimes I wish I can do creative writing, but sadly, I can't.

6. I have NOT fully memorised my 3 Piano Diploma Exam Pieces. And I'm hoping to do my exam in may/june next year. Die.

These are just a bunch of lame and random thoughts that come to my mind.

Oh yes it's going to be my cousin's wedding this sat!!! =D One extra day to slack.. I shall not be a madwoman and bring holiday homework to do during the tea ceremony although obviously I am not going to be involved in drinking the tea. LOL.

The Channel 8 7pm show (lao po da ren) is damn funny ok.. I was laughing throughout the whole time today. Considering that I have NOT been watching TV regularly ever since P6, I'm only beginning to re-learn how to enjoy them again xD

Hahahahahaha.

Oh my gosh. The top PSLE score this year is 294. WTH.