argh. there was LA meeting ystd and chinese meeting today. then for the next 3 days, there will be band camp. argh. no free day at all?!?!

yesterday we kept moving around bugis can. at first we discussed in the library, only to discover that we could only talk in whispers = not very productive right. so we moved to the soup spoon. please dun talk to me about tt place ever again!! for those of you who may wanna eat there, pls rmb that 2 ppl can share 1 soup. every 1 of us were full to burst after half a bowl, and over the next hr we somehow forced ourselves to finish the rest! oh, i didn't finish the bread, hahahaha xD

oh, and thank you so much steffi for the cakes! the 6 polar cakes must have cost you quite a lot. but thanks anyways :) although we were all like O.O when you first took them out thanks to the FULL lunch we had, haha.

then went back to the library lor. went to the 5th floor garden (or whatever they call it, heck it) and it started to rain -.- so we moved in. and just when i thought we FINALLY found a good and cozy place, the guard chased us out T.T so we went back out lor. by then not raining liao =) after a rather unproductive session (we talked more about irrelevant stuff than the proj) we went to bugis again. haha. oh, and we saw min yi, ei leen, yan ci, yizhen and a few other ppl, but daoed them >.< later, min yi and yan ci came to say hi to us =]

so the whole day was spent alternating between bugis and NLB. pretty boring huh.

only to repeat this cycle today.

9.40+ am: reach bugis, walk around. hang yin calls to say that she and theresa will be late.
9.45am: jin jia comes
9.50+am: yi jie comes
10am: theresa comes. yayness! i alone with them very awkward leh >.<
10.15am: go KFC.

hang yin and si jin came later. when we were discussing halfway, i realized tt someone was staring and grinning at me. *looks* OMGOSH. WEI HUA!!! then the guys wanted to invite wei hua to sit with us, but theresa kept saying "let him eat in peace". turns out tt he, kiat shing, chin kiat, jun chong, chair and 1 more guy (can't remember who) meeting at bugis to do proj also. then he left, only to return with kiat shing. haha. we keep bumping into ppl these 2 days. singapore is so small, no wonder teenagers have so few places to go lah!

anyway, at lunchtime, we thought we would be very inconsiderate by not giving up the place to others, so we went to NLB AGAIN. (rahh. alternating between the same 2 places these 2 days. boring right.) children's section. at least we didn't have to speak in whispers, hehehe.

then went back to bugis with si jin, hang yin and theresa after the meeting was over -.=" shopped around a bit, then hang yin left. then thersa suggested taking neos, which was a great idea, except tt hang yin had just left T_T wasted!!! if not 4 ppl more fun, and can pay less also xD

anyway, we took the neos lah. hopefully they're visible, coz i dunno if my scanner will do anything stupid. considering what a comp noob i am, i probably will enable it to do so. i wanted to upload pics from my handphone, but after trying for 10 million light yrs, i remain unsuccessful. so nvm, will try to upload the pics from my hp another day xD i'm too lazy to try again LOL.


sorry si jin! >.< i had to put all those musical notes on your face and did not know how to erase it! omgosh! oh, and the background is supposed to be gold. why is it black?!?!


ok, hopefully this is better xD anyway i think it is..


this is the nicest of all the pics =] i look the most normal here..


YAY!!! see? this pic is cute! =)

haha. these 2 days were supposed to be discussions, but we had fun too! anyway, life is short, so we must make it as enjoyable as possible, right? as for the neos right..
i know i look retarded (ok, we were all shocked at the outcome), but nvm lah xD and the machine lagged! so we had extra time to design the photos!

kk, that's about it for now. hope you guys can see the photos!

:)

ok, so term 1 is over. the much-anticipated hols have finally arrived. everything seems to be ok, except tt i am not very happy.

so the term started off fine. went to 3H, got to know quite a few nice ppl :) sub combi: triple science + history + MEP. took on the role of being a section leader in band, and am involved in HSSRP (which is totally ARGH). i thought it was as easy as in sec 2, where all you need is a little bit of luck to score above-average in exams. but.. haiz. life has been stressing me up real bad :(

my results are like totally atrocious, especially physics and chinese. while i have always been kinda handicapped in chinese >.< (so flopping it doesn't bring about as much pain and disappointment as it ought to), physics has been a complete letdown. i don't know why but i have flopped every single physics test leh. i still dare not show anyone any of my physics paper. trust me, i am REALLY freaking scared tt i fail my physics this year or something. which is totally unexcusable lah. omgosh. what if my report book contains a 'D' on it? then there will be a long series of rather unpleasant events unfolding. sigh.

chem has been a disappointment too. while the shock of my chem results isn't as bad as the shock of my physics and chinese results coz a lot of ppl in cls got around my score, nevertheless, i don't think it's acceptable anyway. pray Lord that next term will be a better one for everyone, that everyone's results may improve. Lord, many people are very worried about their grades, and they need You. Amen.~

something made me very very happy today: I WENT TO CHURCH!!! ^^ lalala. it has been a long time since i last went, and since i happened not to have music lesson this morning, i went to church! :) it's great to go to church, especially when you've not been going for a very long time and you know you need it. pastor khong is totally IMBA can.. he made the whole congregation pray for 1 hour without realizing it! he said things like pray for: phillipines (a pastor from there lost his wife), malaysia (political situation) and other nations, singapore (ministers and mas selamat), marketplace (major revival, increase in the population of each church, society, which includes school, work, home etc), a show they are going to organize in esplanade, and family. he said "don't stop praying! if you run out of things to say, pray in tongues. how many of you can speak in tongues?" most of the congregation could, but i can't >.<

there was this guy which made me O.O he kept praying in tongues, and i was truly amazed at what the Holy Spirit could do to people. i heard him pray about the mas selamat thingy, and he was like "Lord, only he knows where he is. pray that You forgive him, for he does not know what he is doing." i was thinking omgosh. while most of the congregation was probably praying that mas selamat get captured quickly and get wad he deserves so tt life can go back to normal for everyone, here he is, praying for forgiveness on mas selamat's behalf?!?! pastor khong said in korea, the average pastor would say tt 1 hour of prayer = warmup. at first the congregation was like O.O but later i think everyone realized it was true. at first, i couldn't think of anything to pray about, maybe coz i haven't been actively involved in church for very long. but later, it was like.. 1 hour was barely enough for prayer!

by God's grace, i know that all year 3 dunmanians will get through this alive and unscathed. i know that there will be a lot of miracles done, and that we can expect to see a lot of changes for the better. yes, Lord. Amen.

P.s. i think this 1 week holiday is really a gimmick. tmr there is LA meeting (which is tentatively scheduled to take up the whole day), and there is camp from wed-fri (from about 730am-6++pm). so i'm left with tues to finish up all my stuff. but then again, maybe i will have to meet up with my HSSRP mentor...

argh. but i know i will get through all this crap alive.

today was a bad day.

argh.

rahh, things always turn out like this.
maybe i should stop trying lah. coz it's never gonna work.
stop talking nonsense, i should tell myself. how can i quit trying before even trying?
nvm nvm.

i'm so bloody pissed off now. by lots of things.

ugh.

Back from hiatus.. early

yup i know i said i will be going on hiatus until the end of term 1, but not having a place to vent my frustrations freely makes me feel like.. bleh :( lack of self-discipline lah i know. haha.

scanning/ printing out an extra copy of SBT now, since just now suddenly want to use then dunno who packed the cupboards so at first a lot of SLs (including me)were damn scared coz we thought we couldn't find. thank God i managed to find a copy!! but it was really torn and tattered =( practically falling apart. so i think i will send it for rebinding, and make an extra copy just in case!

school work has been piling up. got back the HCL test, and i totally flunked the cheng yu and cloze component.. i think i got the lowest in class! T.T omgosh. was damn malu ok! some more with that imba hang yin beside me.. this is damn damn damn demoralizing. i dun think i want to show my parents/tutor this paper until i gotten back the comprehension component, which i hopefully did better in. haiz. i guess i'm just not born to be good in chinese.

my printer is so sloww.. i am only printing out the cover page now!! tsktsktsk.. hurry up! ok yay it's done ^^ scanning the contents page now. it better be completed quickly.

anyway, it's been pretty emo nowadays. yes i know tt i may joke, laugh and crap (maybe a bit too much) but you guys probably dun realize tt this is to conceal whatever tt is inside. today was a good example. when we were walking to the chem lab, i was laughing like siao coz of __________, and glada commented tt i have "childlike laughter". hahahahaha. tt is, until i told her what i was laughing about. LOL. but later tt afternoon, reality suddenly started to crash in on me. dunno why suddenly so emo leh =/ i began questioning myself my purpose in life. who am i? what am i? i'm not as happy as what you all perceive me to be from my cheerful exterior. i guess i'm just trying to put on a brave front.

haha, but i dun cry at night just before sleeping lah :) i guess it'll be alright after awhile. anyway, the most genuine tears are often the tears tt cannot be seen, right? and crying only makes you wallow in self-pity, which i think is not very useful coz life has to go on. no point emo-ing about things in the past. look towards the present and future and continue running the race of life =)

i really miss RGPS 5F'04/ 6F'05, and everthing else tt happened to me within tt time!! those two years taught me a lot of things. it helped me to grow, not just in terms of academics. it gave me a whole new horizon of life's perspectives. it helped me to be one step closer to reach my goal of touching lives, and i hope i did. it helped me to uncover my life's purpose. it helped me to be useful not just to myself, but also to those around me. i know i had made many mistakes during those two years, some of which were pretty serious i guess >.< but then again, those mistakes helped me to reflect on the aspects of my life which could be better, and ultimately helped me to learn. ppl may think that i wasted a lot of time engaging in "free labour", but then again, i picked up invaluable lessons of life i would otherwise never have been able to gain access to. anyway, i had lots of fun in the process, which was very different from the politically-correct ideas of "fun" :)

though i may have took things for granted back then, on hindsight, i realize that was the happiest period of my life.
without those times, i dun think i would have what i have now.
my life would have been very different.

but it's all over, it's all over...
i really miss those times :' (
i don't think they will ever be presented to me again, at least not in the forseeable future...
all i have are just some souvenirs from the past... oh, and a ton of fond memories.
i promise i'll treasure whatever i have left <3
so, to whoever is reading this, treasure even the most mundane things you have now. because you will never known when it will be taken away from you, and by then it will be too late.

yup, since this is a public blog, i shall not emo too freely. but i feel like i have been living the wrong life. i've been living a lie for very long i suppose. and i really want to face up to the truth.

-liking the wrong subject(s).. only realizing this misconception thanks to ms low, my form tchr. without her, my sec 3 life wouldn't have been so wonderful so far =)
-being too "open" about things.. i realize tt i must learn to be more discreet and secretive, regardless of who i am interacting with.
-been to submissive, to the extent that it has affected areas of my life tt i can't control. true, putting up too strong a resistance against ppl of the highest authority when you are only 12/13/14 years old is never easy. but had i known what detrimental effects this "mental weakness" would bring about, standing firm and resolute to my decisions would have been so much more worthwhile.

i took up a lot of time to write this post, but it has helped me understand things so much more. it's been a very fruitful 10-15min blogging.. the investment of a few min can't compare to what i just took back.

i musn't emo, i musn't emo...
life is not about thinking of the past. it is about living the present, and looking towards the future.
only then, can you really run the race of life.

yo ppl :) hope y'all had a good CNY and were paid reasonably well in exchange for all the crap you've had to endure.. all the "wah so big already arh!", "wah you must jump more than can grow taller!" etc.

anyway, here's a joke about this: your relatives talk the same old crap to you, saying "wah so big already arh!" year after year. so finally, you couldn't stand it. instead of just smiling in hypocrisy, you tell them "wah you are so old already, you have one foot in the grave!" xDD ok, before you go round shooting your mouths off at your irritating relatives, just one word of caution: i tell you this joke doesn't mean you really go tell all your relatives that arh. if you do, i can't assure you wad you will become.

and, i will be going on hiatus (i hope) until this term is over! considering the meagre amount of ppl who actually visit this blog, and the amount of time left until the march holidays, i don't think there will be that many detrimental effects. just wanna concentrate more on my studies and not waste any more time blogging! my marks are sucky enough as they are. but dun worry, i will be coming to check the tags lah, so pls tag here as per normal :) thx alot.

bye for now! going off to enjoy the rest of my CNY hols!
<3

just came back from reunion dinner at my paternal grandparents' house. drank red wine (just for fun) and contrary to what i thought, the wine was kinda strong for me and as a result i am so sleepy now T.T

yesterday's MEP lesson was uhm.. freaky. ms lin assigned us partners for composition lah.. supposedly to 'complement each other'. yes this arrangement is permanent. and my partner is *drum roll* ALEX!! omgosh. i was like staring at her for one whole min while everyone else was having the same O.O reaction lah. but i still count myself more blessed than huihan, who was blessed with YANG SHEN. i think huihan and i are totally incompatible with our partners lor.

since ms lin was having lesson in the digital arts studio and we, the 1st class, had to do composition with our partners for the 1st half of the lesson, we went to the music room next door. so like duh, we were slacking.. chatting, playing the piano, eating, doing hw etc. then later alex and yang shen decided to do pumping (and clapping) lol! but the most O.O part was when ms lin suddenly came in, uninvited and unannounced, catching them in the midst of their pumping. she said something like," what has this got to do with music?" then they say they finish liao. so she said," you sure?" and since they said yes, we had to WRITE CHORDS LAH!! argh. i hope mine were correct.. i just dun understand it, especially since i've not touched ABRSM theory since i was p6. hmmm.

anyway, today was the highlight of my week so far! went to city hall to meet my LA group - theresa, hang yin, si jin, steffi and joshua - for discussion. hang yin came later coz of piano lesson. at first we were at HMV, wondering where to go to discuss, even though we thought of going to burger king yesterday. so we walked to esplanade then to marina. eh tt machine in the underpass from citylink to esplanade is freaky ok!! you hear for too long confirm start laughing one -.-

so anyway we decided on starbucks lah. and what was totally retarded was that me, who thought starbucks is expensive, ordered an americano expresso (i need caffeine hor) for $4. i was thinking, wow, this is a good deal, i get to save $1++ as compared to the rest of my group. then when i tasted it, IT WAS EXACTLY LIKE KOPI-O POK KOSONG!!! wasted my 4 bucks lah.. could have gotten it at a hawker centre at 60 cents -.=" and i felt that we made the most progress today as compared to the rest of the days when we meet up during free periods or something - in those circumstances, we would either ** ***** **** (no obsession kay!!), do hw or just crap. ok lah, maybe we would think of a storyline, but not as much. maybe without the distractions of hw etc, we can get a lot more work done. whatever it is, i feel so accomplished now! ^^ anyway now it's all thought of liao YAY.

after hang yin came, steffi and si jin said they wanted to go toilet, so i went with them and we had a good long talk.. about some stuff which isn't particularly convenient to mention here. so after we came back from the toilet, hang yin had already ordered cranberry juice (o.O isn't tt very sour?) and dunno is it we laugh to hard or something then si jin's tea spilled.. "no point crying over spilt TEA." xDD on another occasion, joshua's cover dropped lah. i think we dirtied starbucks leh =/ but as steffi said, probably the only reason why they didn't chase us out was coz they made about $30 from us today. (each person spent about an average of $5.) starbucks seems to enjoy being a place to host project discussions hor. ok lah, hopefully we get to go there more often for LA discussions!

even though i thought we would end at 4++ (with outstanding work, but since everyone has to rush back for reunion dinner so yeah), we ended at 1++pm! congrats :) then joshua left.. so the 5 of us went to yoshinoya for lunch. previously i didn't know there was such a thing called STUDENT'S MEAL.. ok, i know i am very lag lah!! i used to think tt yoshinoya was very ex.. at least now i finally realized it's affordable yay! and i saw SARAH CHUA.. my pri school friend! it's nice seeing someone from your past who has gone a separate way, even though it may have just been a quick "hi" and "bye". i thought she would go back to RGPS.. i wanted to go back ok!! but apparently LA project is more important and urgent so yeah.. will try to go back on tchrs day lah, if anyone is going back at all =/

after tt we went for retail therapy.. ok lah, window retail therapy, since we didn't buy anything at all! so guai right xD actually no lah, coz we no money mah T.T next time i go out for an LA group discussion, must remember to bring at least $30-$40 for impromptu shopping trips! oh, and i need to save up to start buying birthday gifts for friends. yah, come to think of it, this should be one of my new yr resolutions for chinese new year. it is better to give than to receive, anyway =)

then went back to HMV and i left at about 2.30-2.45pm. met my mum at westmall to finish my CNY shopping, coz previously i only bought blouses, so at least today i bought pants! but it's like $48++ leh.. clothes seem to be getting more and more expensive nowadays. must buy less clothes, then can save my parents' money! haha.

happy CNY everyone! forget about all your troubles for the next few days as you receive your money and meet up with your relatives and eat all the CNY goodies (until kena sore throat) and indulge in the festive season! as for all the irritating aunties/uncles who never fail to exclaim over-dramatically at how tall and big you've become, i not so sure wad to do leh.. sorry. i guess we should just keep quiet, or maybe talk minimal crap to them just to satisfy them LOL. when i tell my mum about how annoying they are (ugh) she says tt their generation is like tt. ok.. just hope tt i dun become one of them when i reach their age! hahahaha.

happy CNY, once again! may everyone lead a fulfilling shu nian!
<3

yay! there's no school tmr coz of the outstanding O-level results! ^^ anyway there's LA meeting at city hall tmr, so there's a bit of excitement added to my otherwise dull and boring life. school has been increasingly hectic.. we just had a physics test today, and there will be tests like, every week?!?! sec 3 is so much worse than sec 2, my 'honeymoon' year. haha. wonder how all the seniors managed to get through it, and pass their exams with flying colours..
even if you can control me, obviously you can't control other people right. just because you're used to having your way in the courtroom doesn't mean that you can always have your way outside it. sometimes i wonder how you act in front of other lawyers who are your opponents in the court cases.
if you people don't know who i am talking about, nvm. but then again, it's pretty obvious lah.
突然想用华文。。
虽然我在家通常不讲华语，但自从我来到了德明后，我发现了华语的重要性：
这几天以来，我一直在想，自己到底是谁？我发现，原来我，苏俐杉，不是你们这些人以为的，也不是自己以为的自己。不明白，不了解，为什么。。。
原来生活是那么负杂的。。
在这个新年里，我希望能够把生活调理一下，过得好一些。
祝大家新年快乐，学业进步！
(:
i'm so sick of this.

why was it that when i typed a super long post, it just couldn't be published, and so i have to write a new one? argh. i can't be bothered to retype everything out again.
my hamster died today.. but i dun feel sad. no point lah, what's done is DONE! i have loved and cared for him as an owner, and now that he's dead, it's time to move on.
school is getting more and more imba these days. my math test: 8.5/12. not very good lah =/ but the part that pisses me off the most is that i made a careless mistake.. if not i could have gotten 10.5/12, which is more acceptable lah. but i feel very guilty.. ms low gave us so much, and i can't even repay her kindness in terms of my math results. and it's not even as if those questions were completely foreign.
I HATE LA. yep, ms yeo has been doing a great job in ensuring that the LA welfare of 3H has been pretty good, and i do think she's a good teacher. however, i just don't think LA is my cup of tea. no offence, anybody! :)
i wonder what subject person am i leh. a lot of people (including my parents) think i am a language person, but then again, i dun have the creativity or passion to churn out good essays. i prefer math to shakespeare haha.. and for some reason, creative writing can't give me the satisfaction i derive from math. mr sng said in a speech a few days ago that the adolescent years is when we start to question who we really are. i dun think i'm much of an LA person after all. and i'm not as good in it as what other people think.. i know myself best, right. my blog posts happen to be long coz i'm either very pissed off, or excited to reminiscise about my day with 3H. under normal cirsumstances, i dun write such long posts.. although i DO notice that my posts have been longer LOL. i think i'm beginning to talk more both online and in real life.
ok, better stop here now. got lots of things to do, and i'm very sleepy now. sian arh.
bye :)

math was shit. feeling damn apprehensive about it, dun even know whether i can pass or not, let alone get at least 80%. maybe i should have studied more, i mean, we've seen those kind of questions before right? sigh. the test was for like only 20min, and 5 questions!! T_T and to make things worse, when time was already running out, ms low said "4 more mins" then i began panicking like SIAO ok!! as a result, my mind went blank and i couldn't do anything anymore, even though under normal circumstances i think i would be able to.

why are some people born with natural math talent while others are math noobs no matter how hard they try not to be one? maybe i'm just not born to be good at math. and i was so upset and stressed out over the quiz tt for practically 1 period, i was like stoning and lamenting to hang yin about my zero IQ. (thanks hang yin for listening to all my crap even though it was a waste of time and you could have used the time to do something more profitable! :) ) she told me dun stress myself, tt kind of thing lah, but it's not as if i want to stress myself in the 1st place. to me, marks are tt important. especially a useful, core subject like math.

sigh.

confusion

i really dunno what to do these days. so many things to do, yet so little time and motivation to do them. i feel torn between so many worlds - i really don't know what is best for me. people would say tt this is just teenage angst; everyone goes through them. but sometimes i just feel like it's going to kill me anytime. and someone who keeps pestering me whether there is anything to hand up tmr is REALLY IRRITATING. &*^&(^%Y*%. CAN YOU PLEASE ACCEPT AND UNDERSTAND THE FACT THAT I HATE BUSYBODIES?!?! ugh. been feeling pretty pissed off these few days. but it's not like i'd tell many ppl about it.. not that i dun trust anyone, but since i'm a complete sucker for sharing emotions, i prefer bottling everything inside and just wait for it to go away.

***

i'm sorry but i have to let everything out here.

i'm really sick and tired of all this shit. all my life, i've been doing things to make YOU happy. you guys have always dominated my life, so that my likes/dislikes/interests/dreams become yours, and there's practically nothing left for me to call my very own. i dun even feel comfortable around you anymore! you claim you love me and care for me so if there's anything wrong you'll always be here for me. but everytime i try to tell you about what i TRULY feel, you'll be angry and say something like "SHUT UP!", "don't talk crap to me", "we've discussed it already, i don't wish to repeat myself" or, "you have no right to be angry." what the hell. you think that since i was once a toddler means i'm a toddler forever is it -.- you don't realize that you must expect different levels of submissiveness from toddlers and teenagers. i find you shockingly domineering and controlling. it's like, i dun even have any breathing space at all! i feel trapped.. within the confines of my own home. my home, a place supposed to be filled with warmth, care and security, has now only been demolished to a place where i eat, sleep, bathe and study in. talk about what care and security. unless you're referring to the lack of security without a roof over your head lah, that is.

i'm still very pissed about many matters which have supposedly "closed" years ago. i feel as though i'm living my life for the two of you.. which is retarded, coz IT'S MY LIFE. MY LIFE, not YOURS. if you've made some success over it, then i wouldn't mind.. i would trust you anyway wad. however, time and again, you screw up all my plans, hopes and strategies for a better future. if i were to make my own decisions, whether it turns out well or not, i'm fully responsible for it. but if YOU make MY decisions, if it turns out well, the credit will partially go to me, partially to you. (if the consequences are desirable then i wouldn't mind sharing the credit.) but if it turns out badly (like it almost always does), i'm SOLELY HELD ACCOUNTABLE. held accountable, even though i had no choice but to follow. held accountable, even though the decision wasn't made by me. then you will come and blame me, say that i'm never happy with what i have. of course not happy right, since i have nothing to be happy about with your decisions -.-

you say that you love me so much, you want me to succeed tts why you plan out my future for me. and i can't have a say because you're "so much older and have seen so much more of life than me". so yup. no self-made decisions, no happiness, ultimately no success, which brings about more unhappiness. when i'm pissed, you will say tt i like to make myself angry for no good reason, always like to roll my eyes, tts why my eyesight was good then now detioriated, tts why i got migraine. then still say what "when everybody is achieving success, you will be in the operating room. no amount of money can replace you being in the operating room." then will proceed to tell me about the horrors of it. (dun want to type here coz i lazy xD )

when i show signs of irritation and hint to you that you don't deserve to take 200% control of my life, you will say," then dun come and complain tt you dun get the success you want." like duh, of course i dun! coz you always come and ruin my plans. you dun realize that i know myself best, you barely know me coz i won't reveal my character to you.. just because you gave birth to me or you hope i'll take after your genes or some bullshit you know me much better than i know myself. how many dreams i had to part with in order to make you happy! i know i have lost my sense of self in the process. but do you care? NO! you never care about feelings.. if you do it's only your own. i never get a say in my everyday affairs. people have advised me, time and again, to sit down and have a good talk with you guys. ok lah, talk then talk lor. but the problem is, will you think it IS a problem that has to be addressed, or me showing some attitude problem? we both know the answer, dun we?

and you. you say that whatever i do must lead me to a trophy, so dun waste time doing things that dun. yet, you tell me that this kind of do-things-which-will-lead-me-to-a-common-benefit mentality is too singaporean. ugh. dun you realize you are just contradicting yourself? never mind if those areas are what i'm truly passionate in! never mind that those things are just as important to me as academics! never mind that those things are a measure of my self-worth! never mind lah, coz only your opinions matter, right? i know you will agree.

people think that whenever i have a problem (including those with you), i can always tell them. so they may be wondering, why dun you share it with someone then?

and it's such a simple question.

ugh. i wonder when this will end.

wah stupid stupid stupid -.- i received the damn msn virus thrice today. 1st time was from meera, my pri school friend.. when i saw my email at the file i go open.. then found out it was a virus. by then too late liao.. invaded my whole msn and automatically go send to my contacts without my knowledge and control. the 2nd and 3rd time was from joshua.. he claim i go send to him then it go send to all his contacts. ran the antivirus for dunno how many times liao.. and delayed my history group (sorry!) argh. now is 12.57am and there's still the speech to write.. thankfully, jin jia did quite a lot liao :) i damn tired.. for the past few days, i slept a grand total of 9 HOURS!

imba LOL.

hi. yay sian sian sian! i really hope emperor can come along fine.

rahh. i will never dare to touch sodium hydroxide ever again in my entire life.

so retarded. i got burnt by it today..

coz during chem lesson, we were doing chem experiments, and my NaOH bottle apparently was leaking (but i didn't dare to screw it tightly in case i got burnt), so i just poured and.. OWW! (i think i screamed very loudly leh. >.< )

so went to rinse my hand under running water and called the teacher.. then she gave me first aid O.O thanks steffi, ei leen, felise and cheng ting etc for their help! :D just now when i was bathing, it started stinging again.. oww. nvm lah, tchr said it should be ok within 2 days, so i take it as a definite yes =D

should go eat my dinner now, then clear up my math holiday homework coz it's due tmr and i don't exactly have very little left! (Appalling LOL.)

feel damn retarded now

so demoralizing..

should i or should i not? i know i'm unprepared, but golden opportunities only come once in a lifetime.

kinda emo.. coz wad ms lin said, after all, is true.

but then again, i can't back out now, can i?

in such a dilemma now.. both ways are equally enticing

i really don't know what's best

i couldn't concentrate during math lesson coz of this..

you guys probably didn't know what i was thinking.. but thanks for cheering me up (unconsciously) with all the crap and laughter :)

and for awhile, i really forgot all about it..

but then, it stupidly chose to come back =(

went to RGS for the HSSRP briefing today

mdm nora drove me there (wow) and i sat there in her car feeling so paiseh..

coz the 2 of us were the only ones there =/

but she was nice.. she offered to drop me off somewhere after the briefing (:

but my dad was already picking me up so i didn't go.

i saw phyllis at the briefing!! she's my pri sch friend!! =D

then we kept laughing and laughing during the briefing..

then there was this group of guys who went to present their proposal..

one of them was standing straight, BUT his butt was sticking out -.-

we all were sniggering.. i hope we didn't laugh too loudly xD

right now her msn nick is "it isnt alright if you stand real straight with your butt sticking out you know" LOL!

then there was this girl.. she kept applying dunno wad lipstick or lip gloss or something in plain view of everyone.. when the speaker was speaking

so disrespectful huh =.=

we sniggered at tt too xD

but the worst was this woman.. i shan't say anything about it here.. coz it's too err.. sick to be spoken on the internet anyway

the briefing was kinda boring.. but it was fun to see phyllis again LOL

but i wasn't thrilled about the ponning lessons part though.

missed chem test.. and i heard CME was funny.

arghh.

gtg now. bye

second post for the day. lol. i know my previous post sounded kinda cut off suddenly coz i was in a rush just now. but now i have time so i shall post properly.. actually i don't really have anything much to say except tt my sore throat still hasn't recovered. at least it was better than this afternoon when i was laughing and laughing and then all the phlegm came. then it was so difficult to talk but at least my voice wasn't so bad. so just now still can talk lah (:

popping fisherman's friend into my mouth now. i think i will finish the entire pack of 22 lozenges before tmr afternoon. stupid throat. i should thank the person who made me laugh and laugh by repeating the err.. sensitive subject with perfect knowledge of the consequences. i know i laughed like crazy in class today. LOL. well now i guess i'm reaping the fruits of my labour =/

discussing hist project now. damn tired from just now.. all the laughing and supposedly 7 periods of MEP. luckily ms lin was nice and let us off at 5.11pm when dismissal was supposed to be at 5.45pm. some more i was so desperate for fisherman's friend tt i ran over to ghim moh during lunch and came back within 15 min! argh. and i kept eating them during MEP. when i told ppl aboout how i got my sore throat, they were all like O.O.. well i'm feeling this way also!

ok, i guess i shall go do hist proj now.. quite short of time now. it's 10.48pm and i'm aiming to go to bed before 11.30 (quite unrealistic i know. haha). anyway, gtg now. bb =)

hi ppl.. back for my 60th post (: thought i'd better post while i still can, before it's too late ;)
I LEARNT THE FOLLOWING INVALUABLE LESSONS IN SCHOOL!
1. russian churches are onion-shaped and symmetrical, supposed to resemble a candle flame.
2. you must never scold a russian tour guide in chinese because they can understand you.
3. LA film can be a satire if you want a comedy.
4. People can laugh until they have sore throat (like what happened to me today >.< )

commomwealth essay
emperor concerto
piano diploma
new standards in life
new academics standards
new CCA expectations
i do hope i actually make the best out of it and not screw it up >.<
***
fatigue
stress
the harshness of reality sinking in
emo-ing
disappointment
wanting to seek solace through prayer to God
sianfied
doesn't know if what she's doing is right
doesn't know if she even knows what she's doing
tired.
very tired.
wanting to give up
yet wanting to press on
wants to learn how to persevere
yet acknowledges the inevitable fear and reality of burnouts
nervous breakdowns..? not true now.. and hopefully, forever
trying to push beyond the limits
yet knowing that some limits ARE limits.. God put them there for a purpose
biting off more than what can be chewed
crossing fingers so a failure will not be prevalent
something lurking at the back of the mind
yet not knowing what it was.. or why it was there
forget it. leave it alone
will work cause it to be forgotten?
it's retarded, but hey, maybe it works
commonwealth essay is crap after all.
homework to be done
life has to go on
yet still herer crapping like this
not knowing how
not knowing why.
untruthful,
unsure,
unconfident.
oh well. but it's all crap anyway.
***
sometimes life is all like this
watching people all leaving
watching silently, no goodbye, no tears
maybe that's what it's meant to be after all
unknown,
unidentified,
like a closed book.
ah well.
bye bye.
goodnight.
it is 11.29pm now
and there's school tomorrow.

haha. came back from school.. should be bathing by now but heck it, i wanna use the comp 1st :) wah for 12 days my CPU crashed, so i was thrilled when i got it back. then for the next 3 days my wireless network adapter crashed, so i could only use the comp again today. 15 days without internet.. can die man hahaha.

orientation's been great :) especially the leadership stuff. our new form teacher is ms low, and yep, i think she's nice.. she talks a lot. LOL. got to know quite a few new ppl too. 3H 08' has been fun so far, and i hope it will continue to be for the next 2 yrs! (like the way we forced ben to sing yue liang dai biao wo de xin.. haha.)

ok, feeling very tired now. dun feel like blogging anymore.

YAY! I GOT THE HSSRP MENTORSHIP!!!

hahaha.. waiting for the channel 8 7pm show to begin. so i guess i'm wasting time here by blogging AGAIN. LA's a killer ok.. the commonwealth essay topics are damn abstract can. wish they can let us choose the topics we want to write about, and judge us based on what we've written. argh. not all of us are blessed with the gift of creative writing, and even fewer of us are ideal candidates to be trained for creative writing.

seems like MEP A-levels is quite interesting hor? but then.. i think i will reject the offer when school starts. don't see much point in pursuing MEP to such a high level.. especially since i am NOT planning to study it in university, much less become a professional musician.

(Wish me luck for the emperor concerto k? (: i'm confused with the rhythm for some parts.. and it seems like i only have up till band camp to get the whole thing sorted out. i haven't even finished learning the 1st movement, and i tell you, the 2nd and 3rd movements are also very intimidating!! tchaikovsky no. 1 is worse anyway. haha.)

went out with eunice on tues.. we had great fun! aloe vera.. LOL.. and the neoprints! hope we can do tt again before this holiday ends!

have not arranged for sectionals at anyone's houses yet. ah well, elizabeth is away (: so i guess there's still time.

bye for now!

1. Your'ex'and You: He's nonexistent :D
2. I am listening to: a conversation that happens to be too loud.. but I can't hear clearly
3. Maybe I should: Do hw? prac piano? Build up my section? No, all these things are NOT should.. they're MUSTS.
4. I love: piano (:
5. I don't understand: much about life.. haha
7. I have lost my respect for: those who know me will know who that person is :)
8. I last ate: a banana
9. The meaning of my display name is: how sianned and pissed of I am.
10. God: exists.
11. Someday: I will realize that blogging is retarded.
12. I will always be: a geography-hater (but anyway I'm dropping it.. YAY!)(:1
3. Love seems to be: how I know -.-
14. I never ever want to lose: myself?
15. My myspace is: I don't have it
17. I get annoyed when: People assume they have the liscence to make my decisions.. UGH.
20. Simple Kisses: I dunno anything about them. LOL.
21. Today I: went to school for CCA.
22. I wish: my hw has been magically done, I have finished studying for next year, my section improves and becomes more bonded, I improve my piano playing and of course BETTER GRADES!!!(:
***
Jia you. I hope we all can strive for a common goal, so as to achieve a brighter tomorrow. I really hope it can come true.

1. I'm freaking bored right now.
2. I'm terribly tired right now but can't sleep yet coz i must finish writing my scales for tmr.
3. Whole tone scales are guai lan.
4. I haven't progressed much for the piano concerto - a few bars after the 1st cadenza was all I've attempted so far.

5. I hate this year's LA homework (Commonwealth Essay) coz it's damn abstract can -.- sometimes I wish I can do creative writing, but sadly, I can't.

6. I have NOT fully memorised my 3 Piano Diploma Exam Pieces. And I'm hoping to do my exam in may/june next year. Die.

These are just a bunch of lame and random thoughts that come to my mind.

Oh yes it's going to be my cousin's wedding this sat!!! =D One extra day to slack.. I shall not be a madwoman and bring holiday homework to do during the tea ceremony although obviously I am not going to be involved in drinking the tea. LOL.

The Channel 8 7pm show (lao po da ren) is damn funny ok.. I was laughing throughout the whole time today. Considering that I have NOT been watching TV regularly ever since P6, I'm only beginning to re-learn how to enjoy them again xD

Hahahahahaha.

Oh my gosh. The top PSLE score this year is 294. WTH.

Argh... my days begin at 7++ am and end at 12 or 1++. What kind of holiday is this man.. I'm really tired, you know..

I'm relying on coffee to keep myself awake. Just like before the exams. Like wth?

The good thing is that it's my cousin's wedding this sat!! At least I can have 1 day to slack with my family =P but like I suppose, it's only for 1 day..

There is CCA 3 times this week. Mon and fri is for everyone, and wed is for the sec 1s and 2s coz they think we are very weak in our playing. Haha. I tell you, I'm like freaking sleep-deprived OK!!! Now is 7.45am. I'm currently downloading stuff we need for CCA tt my junior sent me yesterday. And I'm practically sleepwalking.

Yeah, this post is all about me complaining about fatigue and telling others how tired I am. Haiz... I wish there can just be ONE DAY where I can just SLEEP and RELAX and SLACK.. coz I feel damn unenergetic now.

This is supposed to be a tired post.

YAY. I finally found this PERFECTLY SUITABLE SKIN. No more retarded pics and misplaced tagboard.

Haha

I am happy.

random quiz

1. Who were you with last night? My family.
2. What woke you up this morning? Myself. LOL.
3. Where are you?Home.
4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?I hope so
5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today? No.
6.When was the last time you cried? Can't remember
7. Ever thrown up in public? Think so >.<
8. Passed out because of alcohol? I've never passed out -.-
9. Who's on your mind RIGHT NOW? 2J'07. Class chalet tmr mah.
10. Would you take a bullet for anyone? Depends on who is it
11. Where would you like to live? Home (:
12. What do you want to be when you grow up? What do YOU think I want to be? Haha.
13. Who is your number one? God!
14. Have you kissed your number 1? Can I kiss God, at least for now? -.="
15. Who was the last person that left you a comment? Zhi Wei.
16. Do you like candy necklaces? NO.
19. When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? Can't remember.
20. Do you listen to music every day? Almost everyday.
21. What was the last thing you bit?Lunch.
23. Are you a fast typer? How fast is fast?
24. About how many people have you liked? I still like them leh, many people xD
26. What are you doing this weekend? Practice piano and study lor. My life is very boring one leh.
27. Whats your favorite type of soda? Coke!
28. Have you ever won an award? Yes O.O
29. What do you want to do right now? Sleep. But if I do it will only reflect a lack of self-discipline, so...
30. Are you listening to music right now? No.
31. Do you like someone right now? Many many Jarviis!
33. How long 'til your birthday? 5 more months. Wait long long.
34. When were you the saddest in your whole life? Getting PSLE results =.=
35. What time is it? 4.17pm
36. Do you use Ebay to buy or sell? No.
37. What makes you mad? Many things. If you know me you will know what they are. LOL.
38. Have you ever had a song written about you? Nah, and I like it this way :)
39. What song makes you cry? Christian.. sometimes.
40.What song makes you happy? Christian, classical, pop, rap, jazz, metal, piano concertos!!
42. What do you like to listen to? Music, the sound of sea waves lapping against the shore..
43. Do you have a job? Student. I'm only 14 what -.-
45. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Purple, though I like black more.
46. What makes you happy? God, piano, spending time with friends and loved ones, jarvix!
47. Whats the next CD you're gonna get? How I know. But my piano teacher said she's going to get me the complete set of Schubert Impromptus for Christmas.. YAY YAY!!!
48. Are you taller than your mom? Yes >.<
49. What color is your car? Black, but strictly speaking, it's my father's car.
50. What is the closest thing to you that is red? My mum's pencil case.
51. What is your ringtone? Vibrations
52. Does anything hurt on your body right now? Backbone. Argh.
53. What colour is your favorite pillow? I don't care about colour, I care about texture.
54. Had a nap today? No
55. Gold or silver? Silver.
56. Is there an animal that creeps you out? Insects especially moths. *Shudder*
57. Hello. How are you? In pain? Otherwise perfectly fine, thank you.
58. Did you go iceskating as a kid? Yeah, and loved it.
59. Ever have stitches? No.. thankfully (:
60. Favorite non-alcoholic drink? ICED FRENCH VANILLA COFFEE!!! (What a pity the school canteen doesn't seem to sell it anymore.)
61. How long ago did you kiss someone? Can't remember.
62. What's something you want to do before you die? Get baptized, spend time with God, spend as much time as possible with my family and friends, play more piano and of course achieve everything I want to achieve.
63. Have you ever caught something on fire? Yes, my hand T.T
64. Have you ever seen the northern lights? I wish i did.
65. Do you know how to use chopsticks? Duh -.- I'm Chinese after all.
66. Name something good that happened today. I'm blogging.
67. What room are you in? Open-air study room.
68. Are you worried about something you can't control? Yeah, lots. Worry is a sin though.
69. Do you take daily medications? No.. Yay I'm healthy!
70. Ever been in a fight? When I'm angry with someone lor.
71. Are you wearing nail polish? No.
72. Favorite color?Purple, black, hot pink, lime green
73. Ever used an Ouija board? No.
74. Sweet or sour? Sweet.
75. Sun or moon?Depends.
76. What shoes did you wear today? None yet. Was at home the whole day.
77. Favorite eye color of the opposite sex? Black
78. Most important quality in any relationship? Acceptance.
79. Favorite zombie movie? I dont watch zombie movies.
78. Time of day you were born? 4++ pm.
79. Do you know your blood type? O+
80. Do you know how to kill a zombie? WTH.
81. What would you spend $5000 on? I dunno.. neccessities I guess.
82. Name something annoying in public transport? How crowded it can get.
83. Would you ever change your name? I ever considered, but apparently you need to get a lawyer to do it for you and you need to make a new IC etc, which is a pure waste of money, so..
84. Would you ever consider going on a reality tv show if offered a large sum of money? Only if the money is enough to entice me.
85. Have you flown in your dreams? No.. surprisingly.
86. Do you smoke? I hate smokers and I don't want to weaken my lungs, which are already weak from asthma.
87. Hugs or kisses? Hugs.
88. You have 10 dollars to spend in the dollar store. Then?
89. Who is the ultimate love of your life? God duh. Rhetorical question -.-

Finished!! Yay.

YAY!!! Finally changed my blogskin. I find this new one more befitting than the old one. Guess what, I took like FOREVER to find it!! Coz all the blogskins like all so emo one, and emoness isn't exactly the image I hope to portray to those who read my blog. (Not that I'm emo in the first place. Haha.)

Have been quite lazy to practice piano for the past few days, and I believe that at the rate I'm going, I shall FLUNK MY DIPLOMA!! oh no >.<

Class chalet is from the 14th to the 16th (which means it starts tmr). What a pity that I can only go on thurs, FOR ONE DAY!! Haiz... thanks to CCA.

***

I still miss 2J.

No more dirty classroom

No more shouts of "hoi!"

No more balls being thrown about in class thanks to those who enjoy volleyball

No more 'J's on the class noticeboards

No more Shylock

No more Scout, Jem and Dill

No more Boo Radley

No more Valencia sleeping in class

No more Mr. Siva making fun of Yang Shen (talk about pure sacarsm)

No more Fiona's horny talks

No more Zhi Wei's high-frequency laughter

No more Yizhen's bullet-train talking

No more cramming in last-minute homework before flag raising

But worst of all,

NO MORE JARVIX!!!

I will never forget those tears so many people shed on the last day of school. The thought of us splitting up permanently saddens me. Yes we know that life has to go on, that even the best of friends must part, but that knowledge doesn't make the process of saying goodbye any easier. Thanks everyone for all the wonderful memories.

"Don't cry coz it's over, smile coz it happened."

Even though I only have one free day, I really hope that I WILL be able to go for class chalet. The sight of most of the class having fun together, is well, too good to miss.

And as we embark on our new lives next year and for all other new years to come, I will never forget 2J. I will, truly, miss everyone.

***

I know it sounds emo, but who cannot be emo when splitting up with THE thing that has been an integral part of his/her life for the past 2 years? Although I wasn't all that thrilled in the beginnng to be coming to Dunman High, I have grown to love the people I have gotten to know through it.

LOL.

Rightfully, it is time for me to go do something more productive. So I guess I will stop crapping here for now and go do the things I should be doing.

Yeah that's all for now.

Bye.

OK, so 3H'08/4H'09 will be where I am going to spend the next 2 years of my life.

The thing is, I dunno if it's good or bad =/

Hope it will turn out well :X but only 3 other jarviis are in my class. Dilys, Xiaozhou and Yitian.

Today was quite funny actually. After CCA (which ended at 1++), i CHIONGED home for the first time in my life.. just to check my posting results, though I know that obviously it will be posted there for the whole of today.. and many days after -.- LOL

As predicted, I was quite excited about the prospect of going to a new class in DHS, though of course I still like 2J'07. But my spirits were dampened and I ws utterly disappointed and disgusted when I saw that __________. SAO3 XING4. (To those of you reading this post, rest assured I am a nice person xD I prefer not to say such things unless in times of err.. extreme provocations). Haha. Anyway, those who know me well enough will know what I'm talking about, so I guess it's best to be gracious here and leave the rest up to the guesswork of others. :)

Enough of muttering. Anyway, I baked today!! Peanut bread in the shape of my hamster and orange chiffon cake! But I'm not sure if the chiffon cake turned out right though =/ it seems a bit weird. LOL. I don't care if it's proper or not, what matters is that it's edible.. and I think it is!! Hahahaha!

OK bye for now =P don't feel like blogging anymore.

[x] I know how to cook toast.
[x] I can do my own laundry.
[x] I can cook for myself. (Simple stuff only lar.)
[x] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations.
Total So Far: 4

[x] I show up for school MOST of the time unless I'm sick.
[ ] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[x] I've never gotten a detention.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x] I drink coffee at least once a week.Total So Far: 7

[x] I know how to run the dish washer and/or do the dishes.
[ ]I can count to 5 in either Spanish/French/German/Italian/etc.
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I remember to water my plants. (Not that I have any.)
[x] I study when I HAVE to.
[x] I pay attention at school.
[x] I remember to feed my pets.
Total So Far: 13

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up.
[x] The first thing I do when I get home is eat.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[x] I understand jokes the first time they are said.
[ ] I can type fast.
Total So Far: 17

[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[x] I realize that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.
Total So Far: 19

[x] I knew that the alphabet and twinkle twinkle little star have the same rythym.
[ ] You just checked.
[x] I noticed rhythm is spelled wrong.
[ ] You actually watch the weather.
Total So Far: 21
You act like you are 21 years old O.O

1. Your name plus "ness"? Lishaness
2. 2 feelings at the moment? Sian and bored.
3. What are you listening to right now? Birds outside the window twiterring away
4. Done anything you've regret so far this week?No. (:
5. Describe where you are right now? Home
6. The highlight of your week? Band prac on fri.
7. What are you craving to have right now? Something that kills boredom.
8. Who were the last people you ate with? Mum.
9. What are you scared of? Moths.
10. Last movie you watched? 881, which was a long time ago T.T
11. Last songs you sang out loud? Probably national anthem, haha.
12. Are you thinking of someone now? No.
13. Who is the last person you talked to? My maid.
14. Last thing you downloaded on your computer? Tchaikovsky piano concerto no. 1 movement 2 sheet music.
15. Have you changed much this year? Guess so ><
16. Hug or kiss? Hug duh.
17. Who was the last person who text messaged you? Dione.
18. Where was the last place you went besides where you are? Jogging yesterday.
19. Do you speak any other language other than english? Chinese + Hokkien.
20. Last thing you watched on tv? Can't remember when I last watched TV. T_T
21. Do you dress for style or comfort? Both.. more of comfort actually.
22. Name someone with the same birthday as you?Sharon Stone.. if I'm not wrong..
23. Ever had a drunken night in mexico? No -.-
24. What's the craziest thing you've ever done?... -.-
25. Favourite colours? Blac, lime green, hot pink.
26. What's your favourite cereal character?Non-existent.
27. Who do you love?Family, friends, hamster, GOD!

Girly
[x] I love at least one shade of pink.
[x] I don't like being messy.
[x] My belongings are organized.
[ ] I don't like rock music.
[x ] I like wearing accessories. (Earrings only though)
[ ] Bright colors amaze me.
[ ] I hate black.
[ ] I go to the saloon once a week.
[ ] I comb my hair almost all the time.
[X] I bring my phone with me everywhere.
Add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.
I am 40% girly... wow. O.O

Boyish
[x] I wear baggy pants.
[ ] I play video games.
[ ] I listen to boy bands like My Chemical Romance, Yellowcard, Switchfoot, etc.
[ ] I like wearing jackets with hoods.
[x] I'm too lazy to do chores.
[ ] I don't like shopping.
[ ] I like to go bungee jumping.
[ ] I like being sweaty. (That's so gross can.)
[ ] I'm a big fan of marvel heroes.
[x] I barely wear perfume.Add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.
I am 30% boyish.

Nerdy
[ ] I always carry a pen in my purse or pocket.
[x] I enjoy studying. (Sometimes >.< )
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I'm a straight-A student.
[ ] I've never skipped any class in my whole life.
[ ] I like my shirt tucked in.
[x] My favorite subject is science.
[x] I enjoy reading books.
[x] My assignments are passed up on time.
[x] I correct people with their grammar.Add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.
I am 50% nerdy.

Emo
[x] I love the color black.
[ ] I always sit at the corner.
[ ] One side of my hair is covering one of my eyes.
[x] I like listening to metal rock music.
[ ] I have a lot of problems in my life.
[ ] I'm not much of a loud person.
[ ] I don't talk much.
[ ] I don't have that much friends.
[ ] I barely have fun.
[ ] I barely go out with my folks or friends.Add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.
I am 20% emo.

Childish
[ ] I am open to my parents.
[x] I sleep with a stuff toy.
[ ] I watch cartoons.
[x] I don't like watching horror movies.
[ ] I sleep with a night light.
[ ] My parents are the ones who choose my outfit.[ ] I'm scared of roller coasters.
[x] I like being with my family relatives.
[ ] I take bubble baths.
[ ] I've ran around the house in my underwear.
Add up all your marks and multiply it by 10.
I am 30% childish.

NEXT
1.Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours? Nobody duh.
2 . Who do you blame for your mood today? Myself.
3. Have you ever seen a dead body? Yeah.
4. What should we do with stupid people? Nothing.
5 . How long do you think you will live? No idea.
6. What was the first thing you did this morning? Open my eyes?
7. The color of carpet in your bedroom? I don't have a carpet there.
8. Last person you went out to dinner with? Family.
9 . Are you spoiled? Maybe, a little.
10. Do you drink lot of water? Kind of.
11. How do you vent your anger? Curse and shout >.<
12. The last compliment you received? WTH -.-
13. Do you look more like your mother or father? Half of each (:
14. When was the last time you threw up? A few months ago.
17 . What theme does your room have? Sianness.
18 . Are you a momma's child or a daddy's child? Dunno.
19. Would you ever join the military? NOOO.
20. The last websites you visited? Blogger? To do this quiz?
21. Who was the last person you took a picture with? Dunno.. can only remember it must have been with some jarvii on the last day of school.
22. Last person you went to the movies with? Family.
23. The last person you stared at? Nobody.
24. Number of pillows on your bed? 1, what you expect?
25. Is anything alive in your room? Sometimes my hamster.
26. Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week? Forward.
27. What is your current goal to achieve? Not telling (:
28.How do you feel when you see him? Who?
29. How long is your hair? Below shoulders.
30. What are your current worries? How to cope with piano, schoolwork etc next yr.
31. Do you have plans for summer? There's no summer in Singapore, and anyway I have no plans =P

koped this from somewhere (:

1. Yourself? hot! XD
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend? non-existent.
3. Your hair? long.
4. Your father? why?
5. Your mother? why?
6. Your favourite item? PIANO!! <3
7. Your dream last night? nothing.
8. Your favourite drink? coffee!
9. Your dream car? mercedes =D
10. The room you are in? white.
11. Your ex? non-existent.
12. Your fear? nah.
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? secret =D
14. Who did you hang out with last night? family (:
15. What you're not? i'm hot, you're not! xD
16. Muffins? suck.
17. One of your wish list items: faith
18. Time: tiger
19. The last thing you did? type? O.O
20. What you are wearing? clothes (:
21. Your favourite weather? cool
22. Your favourite book? Bible
23. The last thing you ate? lunch
24. Your life? sian
25. Your mood? sian
26. Your friends? dunmanians
27. What are you thinking about right now? finishing-this-stupid-quiz
28. Single or taken? SINGLE
29. What are you doing at the moment? typing?
30. Your summer? OK.
21. Your relationship status? SINGLE.
32. What is on TV? dunno.
33. What's the weather like? HOT!!!!! (like me)
34. When is the last time you laughed? dunno.
35. Hurt? nah. xD

i can't believe it! in 2 days' time, our class posting results will be out! dun think i'll get into a very good class, though. my EOY results sucked like nothing you see.

Random Quiz

GREEN is for truth.

I'm missing someone right now.
I don't watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games. (Have I even played before?)
I've tried marijuana (No way! My policy is to stay off drugs ok?)
I have been in a threesome (It's not morally upright)
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship (I've always been single)
I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (I said USUALLY...)
I curse sometimes (Not that I'm proud of it >.<)
I have changed a lot mentally over the past year (Yeah...)
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me (For what?)
I've broken someone's bones (Crazy. I don't have the strength to anyway -.- )
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free. (It's painful)
I need money right now. (Duh right)
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast (Why be in such a rush?)
I have long hair. (That goes without saying -.- )
I have lost money in Las Vegas (I've never been there you NOOB)
I have worn fake hair/nails/eyelashes in the past (And I like it this way =D )
I couldn't survive without Caller ID (I only had Caller ID this July leh)
I am usually pessimistic. (LOL.)
I have a lot of mood swings. (Happy means happy, sad means sad. Understand?)
I have a hidden talent. (If it's hidden you won't even know of its presence HELLO)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (I'm NEVER hyper)
I am currently single. (Too busy for steading -.=" )
I have pecked someone of the same gender (Eew. I'm not les ok.)
I enjoy talking on the phone. (Nah, msn is better)
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (Who does?)
I love to shop. (YAY!!!)
I enjoy window shopping. (Better than shopping, no need to waste $$)
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone. (Even if I did I won't say it here xD )
I'm a pretty good dancer (Like I have time to learn dancing?)
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother (Of course not. She's my MUM after all)
I have a cell phone. (We are living in the 21st century, my dear.)
I believe in God. (No questioning)
I watch MTV on a daily basis (I haven't watched MTV for at least 2 years o_O )
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (I've never passed out and never been drunk. :D )
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (Like duh, of course I know what I want =.= )
I want to have children in the future. (Haha...)
I have changed a diaper before (Enduring a bawling baby is still better)
I've called the cops on a friend before. (What's the point of calling the cops on a bunch of law-abiding people?)
I'm not allergic to anything. (I just discovered that taking too much coffee makes my eyes have a pulling sensation =( )
I have a lot to learn. (I'm only 14...)
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger. (Imagine steading with a 4-year-old boy =.=)
I am shy around the opposite gender. (What's there to be so shy about?)
I have tried alcohol before. (And yes, I liked it xD )
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. (That's so jian4 can!)
I own the "South Park" movie. (I don't really like movies)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (Its pizza tastes the same as that of any other place's.)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (Like how?)
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. (I admit I like some of his music, but his scandals destroy my good impression of him)
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (Why can't they celebrate it here in Singapore?)
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have more than just my ears pierced. (Where else is a conventional place to pierce huh?)
I walk barefoot wherever I can. (Yeah, do it and get your feet dirty.)
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles. (Turtles are all the same to me.)
I spend ridiculous amount of money on makeup. (I don't wear makeup.)
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream (It's better to just de2 guo4 qie3 guo4 :) )
I'm proficient in a musical instrument. (Supposedly, a Diploma-level pianist.)
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs. (Better than working at McDonald's right =.= )
I love sci-fi movies (I said I don't really like movies.)
I think water rules.
I went college out of state. (I've never been to college. I'm only 14 -.- )
I love sausages.
I adore bright colours. (That's why I chose GREEN!!)
I can't live without black eyeliner. (I hate makeup.)
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. (Out of boredom, maybe? :) )
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. (Sad right.)
I can move my tongue in waves.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet. (I'm not very self-disciplined you see)
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. (Fall down and break head then how?!)
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear/wore a toe-ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (Even if it's true, I won't say it here =D )
I am a caffeine junkie (I need coffee! Argh.)
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better. (I hate cluttering up my house.)
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when messy.

LOL. Long quiz done out of boredom. Tomorrow must go back to school. Sian.