Yay am looking forward to Freedom Service this sat, to celebrate the end of EOYs! :D Ok, I admit my results are not worthy to be celebrated for, but to mark the end of my Sec 3 life, oh well :/ AND I WANNA BRING VISITORS TOO!
I'm so proud of myself. I walked home from school today! :D My feet have been hurting but I guess the calories I've burnt made it worth it. Don't worry, I live quite near the school, so it's not some 5-hour crazy journey BY FOOT from Buona Vista to Pasir Ris -.-
I love Beethoven's Piano Concerto No. 5 in Eb Major, the 'Emperor'. The first movement sounds so majestic, the second sounds so beautifully magical, and the third sounds like a very long2 zhong4 dance. Love it especially when Wang Haijie/Rubenstein is playing. And I think Vanessa-Mae's style is imba too. It is in times like this where I feel so inspired to improve my own playing, and yes, to work towards becoming a soloist. Sometimes I wish I can just abandon academics after A-levels and study music at a Russian Conservatory. (Not that I hate school subjects; I DO like them!) But the thought of soloing with a large orchestra is really a childhood dream. Sadly, I don't know if it will ever come true :/ Furthermore, I don't think Singapore is the right place for popularizing Classical Music, and I guess I want to stay here all my life..
I'M LISTENING TO THE FIRST MOVEMENT NOW AND IT'S OMGOSH SO PERFECT :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=heUE4RNicEg
I wish I could play like him but a dream will always remain a dream =.="
Hmmm, band tomorrow. Before that we're going to the church/temple/mosque thing.. I hope I don't forget to bring my scarf haha. K random ;)
Oh, and some bad stuff has been happening but I guess the only solution is to pray and accept it with grace :( anyway the Bible says that just as slaves must obey and respect their masters, the masters must also remember that they too have a Master in heaven. Let no debt remain oustanding, except the debt to love one another. (Quoted from somewhere in Corinthians.) Unfortunately, this isn't the case in real life; the opposite is almost always true. :'(
Wait. The scenery in another of the Emperor Concerto's videos is so beautiful it's making my heart melt <3 <3 <3 but the piano tempo is so slowww it's making me want to sleep. And it doesn't help that now is 12.15am -.-
Grr I hope everything will turn out fine, coz I only want to be the head and not the tail, like what is said in Deuteronomy 28:13.
Well my technique DEFINITELY needs brushing up. Before I went on a piano hiatus before EOYs, it was ok but not superb. And just when I got the momentum, I had to stop it coz exams are obviously more important. I'm quite shocked that my endurance is somewhere down the drain. I can't play as many studies at 1 shot as I could before I took a break, and my Chopin Etude sounds like some Struggling Etude T_T
Tchaikovsky's Piano Concerto No. 1 in Bb Minor sounds like some kind of magical fairytale. I've got the score (thanks to whoever uploaded it on the Internet so that people like me who cannot afford to lose anything except their printer it can have a copy. It's legal duh!) but I can't play it. AWW SADFACE :(
I'M SO SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
So it's this time of the year once again, when EOY results have just been released.
I must say, I performed below expectations. Even though a lot of people found the papers difficult, there were people who did well, so yeah. I guess my GPA may not get >3 this year. Yes, this is how bad my results are. No wonder Ms Low is so concerned. Just pray that this won't repeat next year, or my MEP & HCL O-levels and Year 5 Subject Combi can go die already.
I know I sound incoherent in the above paragraph but whatever..
Sometimes I worry about what the future will hold in store for me when I have shit results like this. I hope nobody's born to be a loser :X
But I'm glad I didn't fail Chinese :D ok I failed my main paper by 1 mark, but other than that, everything's fine :D
I hope life will quickly take a turn for the better. Besides my shitty grades, there are a million and one things more on my mind now :/
I don't think I should start mugging so soon. If not I shall just lose steam and burn out at a crucial time next year. Hmmm, shall just take a good break and pia later on when the time calls for it!
P.s. my EOY grades really stink to the deepest pit of hell T.T
I must say, I performed below expectations. Even though a lot of people found the papers difficult, there were people who did well, so yeah. I guess my GPA may not get >3 this year. Yes, this is how bad my results are. No wonder Ms Low is so concerned. Just pray that this won't repeat next year, or my MEP & HCL O-levels and Year 5 Subject Combi can go die already.
I know I sound incoherent in the above paragraph but whatever..
Sometimes I worry about what the future will hold in store for me when I have shit results like this. I hope nobody's born to be a loser :X
But I'm glad I didn't fail Chinese :D ok I failed my main paper by 1 mark, but other than that, everything's fine :D
I hope life will quickly take a turn for the better. Besides my shitty grades, there are a million and one things more on my mind now :/
I don't think I should start mugging so soon. If not I shall just lose steam and burn out at a crucial time next year. Hmmm, shall just take a good break and pia later on when the time calls for it!
P.s. my EOY grades really stink to the deepest pit of hell T.T
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Wow, it's been a long while since I last updated..
Exams are finally over whew! :D Although I didn't really study (-.-) but I think I relied on God a lot more than what I usually did.
Anyway, here's a summary of what happened:
LA: My arguments weren't very well-structured, but HOPEFULLY I can scrape a B :D
History: Was quite rushed, but I guess there was still time to finish..
Math 1: Captain Jack Sparrow came to haunt me from last year T.T
Physics: They didn't kill us like the way I expected them to, but got some questions I didn't know how to do.. sigh..
Biology: Was one of the best this year I think. But I'm not very sure about the DNA and genes and chromosomes things :/
Chinese: SCREWED UP. Totally no time can. Left half of my chang wen suo duan blank, as well as my last few questions. I minused 20++ marks out of 110. Sigh. Hope I don't fail HCL (although I bet I did T.T)
Chemistry: I think it was better than the common tests, but some questions were quite difficult.
Math 2: Could have been better, but it was still do-able I guess :/
Haiz I hope I will do well. My results are SHIT enough as it is already. Sigh.
Went for East District Meeting today, but could only stay until the games ended. Couldn't hear Dennis preach.. damn sad :(
Nvm, meeting Fiona tomorrow morning and then going for karaoke with East Bee 2 in the afternoon!
Followed by class chalet on thurs.. rightfully I should be going tomorrow also, but oh well, must learn to put God first :)
Friday shall be spent doing I-don't-know-what.. ok I haven't made plans yet. Hopefully can go out with Hang Yin :D
Saturday: CHURCH! Been such a long time since I went (the last time I went was on 2nd September, the day I got Holy Spirit Baptized). Been only slightly more than a month, but it feels like 3 years since I last went =.= Pray that I can bring visitor(s) to the church.. and more!
My piano skills are worsening zzz. Attempted to play the pieces I played before going on a piano hiatus, but sadly, they suck now :(
Guess what.. I already kinda miss mugging T.T but nvm, shall just take a GOOD break these few months before pia-ing for sec 4! Long list of fun things to do now that EOYs are over, definitely not forgetting evaxing and ministry!
Feels great to revive my blog, with the weight of exams finally lifted off me.
Yup that's all for now; bye! (:
Exams are finally over whew! :D Although I didn't really study (-.-) but I think I relied on God a lot more than what I usually did.
Anyway, here's a summary of what happened:
LA: My arguments weren't very well-structured, but HOPEFULLY I can scrape a B :D
History: Was quite rushed, but I guess there was still time to finish..
Math 1: Captain Jack Sparrow came to haunt me from last year T.T
Physics: They didn't kill us like the way I expected them to, but got some questions I didn't know how to do.. sigh..
Biology: Was one of the best this year I think. But I'm not very sure about the DNA and genes and chromosomes things :/
Chinese: SCREWED UP. Totally no time can. Left half of my chang wen suo duan blank, as well as my last few questions. I minused 20++ marks out of 110. Sigh. Hope I don't fail HCL (although I bet I did T.T)
Chemistry: I think it was better than the common tests, but some questions were quite difficult.
Math 2: Could have been better, but it was still do-able I guess :/
Haiz I hope I will do well. My results are SHIT enough as it is already. Sigh.
Went for East District Meeting today, but could only stay until the games ended. Couldn't hear Dennis preach.. damn sad :(
Nvm, meeting Fiona tomorrow morning and then going for karaoke with East Bee 2 in the afternoon!
Followed by class chalet on thurs.. rightfully I should be going tomorrow also, but oh well, must learn to put God first :)
Friday shall be spent doing I-don't-know-what.. ok I haven't made plans yet. Hopefully can go out with Hang Yin :D
Saturday: CHURCH! Been such a long time since I went (the last time I went was on 2nd September, the day I got Holy Spirit Baptized). Been only slightly more than a month, but it feels like 3 years since I last went =.= Pray that I can bring visitor(s) to the church.. and more!
My piano skills are worsening zzz. Attempted to play the pieces I played before going on a piano hiatus, but sadly, they suck now :(
Guess what.. I already kinda miss mugging T.T but nvm, shall just take a GOOD break these few months before pia-ing for sec 4! Long list of fun things to do now that EOYs are over, definitely not forgetting evaxing and ministry!
Feels great to revive my blog, with the weight of exams finally lifted off me.
Yup that's all for now; bye! (:
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Will be on hiatus until after the EOYs, but will just manage a short post before I resume my mugging.
I don't know why but I agree with what Hillary said with regards to some people.. when they see you in school uni in public places, they think that you're someone who can be trampled upon. Omgosh, just now I was on this super crowded bus and there were hardly any empty spaces, so the crowd pushed me to near the door. The bus came to a stop, and this man and his wife wanted to alight. The wife was err.. horizontally challenged, so she was having a hard time even though I was having an equally hard time trying to make way for her.
The man was like," Why don't you go to the back?!?!" blah blah blah. Shout so loud in front of everyone, so uncivilized. I ignored him the first time, coz lol, it's best not to be so quarrelsome and defensive.
But when he got down the bus, he was still yelling at me like nobody's business. WTH. Is he blind or what.. cannot see that I was trying to make way for him and his wife. Bleh.. left with no choice, said (agitatedly?)," I was trying to make way." He continued shouting, so I retorted," FOR YOU." Zzz. -.-
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And now for the amazing thing that happened yesterday night. :D
Everyone at home was asleep, so I was all alone mugging in the dining room. Even though the lights were on, I still felt scared T.T I heard the weird sounds of something with wheels (like you know those kinds of trolleys that are shelves.. my house has one) and it was just behind me! When I finally dared to turn around, I realized there was nothing there.
The sound couldn't have come from upstairs because it was, very obviously, just behind me.
I SENSED THERE WAS SOMETHING BEHIND ME THAT WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE :O
I WAS DAMN DAMN DAMN SCARED.
Quietly, I said," In Jesus' name, I drive out any demon that may be here."
It worked. After that one short but powerful sentence, there was one final time of the sound, and after that it completely went away. There were no more weird sounds to harrass me for the rest of the night. :D
Praise the Lord :D
***
Ok, I spent a long time updating. Time to get back to work, slacker! XD
I don't know why but I agree with what Hillary said with regards to some people.. when they see you in school uni in public places, they think that you're someone who can be trampled upon. Omgosh, just now I was on this super crowded bus and there were hardly any empty spaces, so the crowd pushed me to near the door. The bus came to a stop, and this man and his wife wanted to alight. The wife was err.. horizontally challenged, so she was having a hard time even though I was having an equally hard time trying to make way for her.
The man was like," Why don't you go to the back?!?!" blah blah blah. Shout so loud in front of everyone, so uncivilized. I ignored him the first time, coz lol, it's best not to be so quarrelsome and defensive.
But when he got down the bus, he was still yelling at me like nobody's business. WTH. Is he blind or what.. cannot see that I was trying to make way for him and his wife. Bleh.. left with no choice, said (agitatedly?)," I was trying to make way." He continued shouting, so I retorted," FOR YOU." Zzz. -.-
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And now for the amazing thing that happened yesterday night. :D
Everyone at home was asleep, so I was all alone mugging in the dining room. Even though the lights were on, I still felt scared T.T I heard the weird sounds of something with wheels (like you know those kinds of trolleys that are shelves.. my house has one) and it was just behind me! When I finally dared to turn around, I realized there was nothing there.
The sound couldn't have come from upstairs because it was, very obviously, just behind me.
I SENSED THERE WAS SOMETHING BEHIND ME THAT WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE :O
I WAS DAMN DAMN DAMN SCARED.
Quietly, I said," In Jesus' name, I drive out any demon that may be here."
It worked. After that one short but powerful sentence, there was one final time of the sound, and after that it completely went away. There were no more weird sounds to harrass me for the rest of the night. :D
Praise the Lord :D
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Ok, I spent a long time updating. Time to get back to work, slacker! XD
Thursday, September 11, 2008
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MSN?
IT JUST REFUSES TO SIGN ME IN, EITHER SAYING THAT THE SERVICE IS TEMPORARILY UNAVAILABLE OR THAT THERE'S A PROBLEM WITH MY CONNECTION. I EVEN TRIED EBUDDY BUT IT DIDN'T WORK EITHER.
Chem test: screwed ):
But I found out something really interesting today! Haha, I guess I'm still a noob at identifying such stuffs but I think I'm getting the gist of it now yay :)
IT JUST REFUSES TO SIGN ME IN, EITHER SAYING THAT THE SERVICE IS TEMPORARILY UNAVAILABLE OR THAT THERE'S A PROBLEM WITH MY CONNECTION. I EVEN TRIED EBUDDY BUT IT DIDN'T WORK EITHER.
Chem test: screwed ):
But I found out something really interesting today! Haha, I guess I'm still a noob at identifying such stuffs but I think I'm getting the gist of it now yay :)
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Hmm since I don't think I will be updating this blog as much coz of EOYs I should just quickly do a short update now. :)
Thurs: Chem remedial (almost the whole class turned up O.O ) actually no lah, quite expected.. went out with Hang Yin, Theresa and Sijin to Tiong Bahru. Lunch + walk walk + something VERY embarrassing T.T
Couldn't go to Chung Cheng though, coz by the time I travel there from BV would be too late already :(
Fri: Mug..
Sat: Saw my godma and got nice stuff to eat yay yay :) kk I know I'm a pig but wdv -.- Was finally able to play Chopin Etude!!
Sun: New tuition class. Am able to understand the stuffs a lot better =D went my paternal grandparents' house for lunch, too. Seems like such a long time since I last went.
Mon: School reopens! :D Term 4 = MUG!! Something made me damn pissed off but I shall not elaborate here. Chionged math coz of Pop Quiz. Slept at around 2 or 3.
Tues: Ok but quite screwed in a sense. MY ALL-TIME OUCH-OUCH!! T.T wasn't able to concentrate during Math Pop Quiz as a result. Am so going to die T.T nearly unable to play for MEP prac, but later the pain became tolerable :) you know what? Vomiting works :)
Siting:" Lady Macbeth 产生了!!"
I wanted to laugh but the pain was killing me :' ( sigh.
CAN SOMEONE JUST GIVE ME DIRECTION?!?! I hate it, I really do.
Need to go touch up my HSSRP and pia for Chem. Well I see 6 x 10^23 moles of crap in front of me xD
Sometimes, we all wonder what the future holds in store for us. But many times, there are things along the way that we would rather not know about until the moment itself.
Thurs: Chem remedial (almost the whole class turned up O.O ) actually no lah, quite expected.. went out with Hang Yin, Theresa and Sijin to Tiong Bahru. Lunch + walk walk + something VERY embarrassing T.T
Couldn't go to Chung Cheng though, coz by the time I travel there from BV would be too late already :(
Fri: Mug..
Sat: Saw my godma and got nice stuff to eat yay yay :) kk I know I'm a pig but wdv -.- Was finally able to play Chopin Etude!!
Sun: New tuition class. Am able to understand the stuffs a lot better =D went my paternal grandparents' house for lunch, too. Seems like such a long time since I last went.
Mon: School reopens! :D Term 4 = MUG!! Something made me damn pissed off but I shall not elaborate here. Chionged math coz of Pop Quiz. Slept at around 2 or 3.
Tues: Ok but quite screwed in a sense. MY ALL-TIME OUCH-OUCH!! T.T wasn't able to concentrate during Math Pop Quiz as a result. Am so going to die T.T nearly unable to play for MEP prac, but later the pain became tolerable :) you know what? Vomiting works :)
Siting:" Lady Macbeth 产生了!!"
I wanted to laugh but the pain was killing me :' ( sigh.
CAN SOMEONE JUST GIVE ME DIRECTION?!?! I hate it, I really do.
Need to go touch up my HSSRP and pia for Chem. Well I see 6 x 10^23 moles of crap in front of me xD
Sometimes, we all wonder what the future holds in store for us. But many times, there are things along the way that we would rather not know about until the moment itself.
Friday, September 05, 2008
So actually I'm more Chinese than what I thought I was O.O
You adhere to the ideas of loyalty, honesty, sincerity, and duty.You respect authority and age. You believe in social harmony.You are big and bold. People consider you to be someone with a lot of potential.You are coming into your own right now, and you are figuring out your place in the world.
Holidays are quite boring.
Mug mug mug mug mug.
Went to school for chem yesterday. Almost the whole class was there; proves how muggerist 3H is -.- (ok I knew that since the beginning of the year. I'm the only lazy bum in class I guess.)
Maybe I should continue with my physics notebook huh. It's Friday already and I haven't unearthed 95% of my hw =.=
You adhere to the ideas of loyalty, honesty, sincerity, and duty.You respect authority and age. You believe in social harmony.You are big and bold. People consider you to be someone with a lot of potential.You are coming into your own right now, and you are figuring out your place in the world.
Holidays are quite boring.
Mug mug mug mug mug.
Went to school for chem yesterday. Almost the whole class was there; proves how muggerist 3H is -.- (ok I knew that since the beginning of the year. I'm the only lazy bum in class I guess.)
Maybe I should continue with my physics notebook huh. It's Friday already and I haven't unearthed 95% of my hw =.=
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
I RECEIVED HOLY SPIRIT BAPTISM TODAY. :D
Anyway, I went for Metarmophosis with East Bee 2 today (but Hui Hsien couldn't come). Was interesting.. they asked for people to join different ministries. But I don't think I can commit ): so I didn't sign up for any.
Then there was this game where every care group had to join hands/tie their waists with rafia and compete to see who could reach The Promised Land (Fort Canning) the fastest. Haha was quite fun lah. I guess it was exercise so I didn't feel too guilty about the soft drinks later :)
Went back to Nexus Auditorium. Made a new friend, Fiona from Chung Cheng, along the way back! Haha she had already been baptized with the Holy Spirit. Didn't know that so many people could talk in tongues in church.
Dennis talked about the Holy Spirit. I still have my sermon notes here with me, but I lazy type them out ><" then Pastor Shirley conducted the worship and omgosh seriously it was the best I've ever been to.
YES I CAN PRAY IN TONGUES NOW :D haha, get jealous ;) you know who you are..
Anyway, I went for Metarmophosis with East Bee 2 today (but Hui Hsien couldn't come). Was interesting.. they asked for people to join different ministries. But I don't think I can commit ): so I didn't sign up for any.
Then there was this game where every care group had to join hands/tie their waists with rafia and compete to see who could reach The Promised Land (Fort Canning) the fastest. Haha was quite fun lah. I guess it was exercise so I didn't feel too guilty about the soft drinks later :)
Went back to Nexus Auditorium. Made a new friend, Fiona from Chung Cheng, along the way back! Haha she had already been baptized with the Holy Spirit. Didn't know that so many people could talk in tongues in church.
Dennis talked about the Holy Spirit. I still have my sermon notes here with me, but I lazy type them out ><" then Pastor Shirley conducted the worship and omgosh seriously it was the best I've ever been to.
YES I CAN PRAY IN TONGUES NOW :D haha, get jealous ;) you know who you are..
Sunday, August 31, 2008
First, a fucking idiot took my stuff and messed them up (without my permission of course) and obviously, lost them.
Next, the same fucking idiot screamed at me for not having the stuff.
To make it worse, the fucking idiot refuses to be proactive and look for alternative ways to solve the problem at hand.
How fucking retarded can it get? :)
Next, the same fucking idiot screamed at me for not having the stuff.
To make it worse, the fucking idiot refuses to be proactive and look for alternative ways to solve the problem at hand.
How fucking retarded can it get? :)
Friday, August 29, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SITING & JOSHUA (:
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY YITIAN 3 DAYS IN ADVANCE! :)
Ok so I finally decided to unlock my blog :D (I locked it for reasons that I shall not disclose here, but if you want to know you can always ask me in person/on msn.)
Went to Siting's blog a few days ago and saw this really funny thing on how the book Macbeth relates to people in 3H! XD but we expanded it in class of course. Most of the characters is Siting give one, the rest is Yitian.
1. Duncan: _____ (don't ask who is this on this blog.)
2. Macbeth: Yeuk Ho (striking similarities in terms of character and position!)
3. Lady Macbeth: ME! (They think my character is similar to hers -.- nothing going on between me and Yeuk Ho duh)
4. Macduff: Glada
5. Lady Macduff: Wen Tian (Or was she supposed to be Malcolm? Ahh dunno lah :/ )
6. Banquo: Joshua
7. Fleance: Yi Jie
8. Hecate: Yitian (Ok this is not formally give one, but she wants to be so yeah xD )
Actually, most of the characters are unaware that they've been given the honour of living up to renowned people in the Elizabethan times! :D
But omgosh you people should have seen the look on Joshua's face when we told him that he was Banquo!! And it was equally funny when we told him who his son was xD According to Yitian, he was originally supposed to be another character! (Haha I can't say it here.. I think everyone will die laughing. Hint: Not Macbeth.)
And we still need to think who can be The Three Witches. But nobody in 3H bears any similarity to them leh :/
Today, a lot of super funny things happened in the LT during LA lecture! :)
1. We saw how disgusting and disgustingly long Macbeth and Lady Macbeth kissed each other D:
2. For some weird reason, our four-chair-long row fell backward and everyone was so worried that we were hurt! But we were laughing like mad xD haha Ms Chan was glaring at us for creating such a commotion but I don't think she saw what happenened!
Bio and Log tests were not as scary as what I predicted them to be; but then again, I won't dare to draw any conclusions before I get back my results.
Disappointing, disappointing.
Tsk, tsk.
I have to hand up the imba >3000 words essay by tomorrow (or rather, today coz it's already 1.09am now -.- ) and I've only written 1153 words! Yup we need to compose studies for our section and my composing skills suck T.T
Btw, is anyone still online?
*Goes to check*
Whoa, grand total of 8 people online leh!
Have all the SLs finished their essays or have they just given up?
Shall end off here; came merely for a break. Shall not sidetrack. Vision's getting blurry coz I'm sleepy (it rhymes) so I'll go back to the essay and HOPEFULLY, get some sleep :D
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY YITIAN 3 DAYS IN ADVANCE! :)
Ok so I finally decided to unlock my blog :D (I locked it for reasons that I shall not disclose here, but if you want to know you can always ask me in person/on msn.)
Went to Siting's blog a few days ago and saw this really funny thing on how the book Macbeth relates to people in 3H! XD but we expanded it in class of course. Most of the characters is Siting give one, the rest is Yitian.
1. Duncan: _____ (don't ask who is this on this blog.)
2. Macbeth: Yeuk Ho (striking similarities in terms of character and position!)
3. Lady Macbeth: ME! (They think my character is similar to hers -.- nothing going on between me and Yeuk Ho duh)
4. Macduff: Glada
5. Lady Macduff: Wen Tian (Or was she supposed to be Malcolm? Ahh dunno lah :/ )
6. Banquo: Joshua
7. Fleance: Yi Jie
8. Hecate: Yitian (Ok this is not formally give one, but she wants to be so yeah xD )
Actually, most of the characters are unaware that they've been given the honour of living up to renowned people in the Elizabethan times! :D
But omgosh you people should have seen the look on Joshua's face when we told him that he was Banquo!! And it was equally funny when we told him who his son was xD According to Yitian, he was originally supposed to be another character! (Haha I can't say it here.. I think everyone will die laughing. Hint: Not Macbeth.)
And we still need to think who can be The Three Witches. But nobody in 3H bears any similarity to them leh :/
Today, a lot of super funny things happened in the LT during LA lecture! :)
1. We saw how disgusting and disgustingly long Macbeth and Lady Macbeth kissed each other D:
2. For some weird reason, our four-chair-long row fell backward and everyone was so worried that we were hurt! But we were laughing like mad xD haha Ms Chan was glaring at us for creating such a commotion but I don't think she saw what happenened!
Bio and Log tests were not as scary as what I predicted them to be; but then again, I won't dare to draw any conclusions before I get back my results.
Disappointing, disappointing.
Tsk, tsk.
I have to hand up the imba >3000 words essay by tomorrow (or rather, today coz it's already 1.09am now -.- ) and I've only written 1153 words! Yup we need to compose studies for our section and my composing skills suck T.T
Btw, is anyone still online?
*Goes to check*
Whoa, grand total of 8 people online leh!
Have all the SLs finished their essays or have they just given up?
Shall end off here; came merely for a break. Shall not sidetrack. Vision's getting blurry coz I'm sleepy (it rhymes) so I'll go back to the essay and HOPEFULLY, get some sleep :D
Friday, August 15, 2008
Whoa. The whole of 3H was like zombified. Everyone was chionging LA film project ystd night :O
You know, I feel kind of guilty for feeling so tired at 12+ and thus falling asleep -.- Poor Josh chionged editting until 2+.. sadly he was the only one from our group able to do it..
Ms Low gave us some time to sleep in class today. And I chionged storyboard during Math, only to have it be dismantled -.-
Will be meeting my LA group again tmr, and maybe on sun. Grr.. weekends have been taken up by this stupid proj!! And everyone seems to be using the corridor along 3H/3I classroom. Dunno who said tt maybe the tchers will be sick of it. Lol. Don't care lah.
And we're gonna get penalized for late submission. Oh well, better than handing up a 5 or 6 min long film (including credits) when it's supposed to be 10 min long!
And I got the most imba homework ever in my whole entire life. And guess what - it's not even academically-related. Yup, it's for band :O for SLs and some others. Topic: How Can I improve My Section? Mr Ng said it was to be "no less than 3000" words, but he hinted tt he wanted it to be 6 or 7k. Due date: end of this month. Sigh. Shall ask other SLs, including some not from band lah. IDEAS!!!
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And now for the random happenings that have been happening in my life.
Physics Pop Quiz: did better than expected. Mr Hong wrote "Improvement!" on my paper. Encouraging :)
Life IS getting better somewhere. Thank God for answering my prayers! =D It's amazing how He never fails me. Praise the Lord!
I'm relieved, but still worried though. Contradictory yeah?
My results ARE crap.
I've learnt to be more.. daring? :O
I still wonder about what the future will bring. (Sounds like the Witches' Prophecies in Macbeth.)
Someone is interested in the relationship between me, Lady Macbeth, and babies.
I wonder what am I feeling. LOL. (This is meant for me to know and for you to find out xD )
I feel like going to sleep.
I wonder about what H3 papers i should take. I wanna take 2 :D (shhh!)
Some people suspect me of having a boyfriend.. they asked my mum! :O Duh I don't have lah.. and Mum believes me yay! :)
I don't think I should be jealous of that someone whom I was jealous of for many years in primary school anymore, lol.
I believe I have grown closer to God.
Nice people are all around you, if you're willing to search hard enough for them.
I love my toenails ;DD look at them to find out why. But I think someone will flip over when she sees what I've done! Haha.
Someone told me that, based on research findings, those who grow up in violent households tend to be more violent later in life.
I didn't know I was so scary and intimidating. Talk about how someone mentioned some people's body language. And evidently, these people aren't cowards leh.
Things are crashing, but remain intact.
I'm still confused. Fortunately it's better now though :)
I just ended The Most Painful Period of my life 2 days ago. The PAIN was REALLY killing me O.O
Which reminds me, some people are caring and kind beneath their somewhat mean exterior.
I've changed. A lot.
I've become much more random too. I didn't use to type such disconnected sentences a few months ago, or in lower sec.
This blog is less active than it was a few months ago. Maybe coz I've found another outlet to fa1 xie4 gan3 qing2.. or maybe I've really grown to be more positive! (:
I'm not very happy, but not sad enough to be emoing the whole day.
I realize that while I can be quite loud and extroverted in some places, I can switch off 100% and become totally introverted in some other places. I wonder why.
I must plan my next move.
I'm wasting time writing random sentences in this post.
Don't be alarmed by me locking up my blog; I will unlock it. Real soon, I hope.
I hope I can learn to smile genuinely, instead of having to put on a plastic, fake one 24/7. Must learn to be as smiley as _________. (The blank's for me to know and for you to find out.)
I must learn to be more decisive lah. Although people probably don't think I'm wishy-washy and indecisive, but oh well.
I think I'm introverted in some ways.
I think I'm equally extroverted too, haha.
I don't want to screw up any more of God's plans for me. Coz I believed I screwed up many, many times already.
I admire the strength, determination and ability of China people. And I believe that, as a Chinese myself, I must learn to emulate their qualities.
My mum is FUNNY! LOOOOOL!!! Something freaking funny happened earlier tonight, which is simply way too HILARIOUS to type out here. Coz whoever reads it will die of laughter.
But my mum reassures me that her intentions are innocent (not her exact words used lah; again, I can't type out exactly what she said coz you will fall off your chair THIS INSTANT)
Now I think I'm kinda happy leh. Mood swing, eh? ;o I always thought I'm quite wen3 ding4.
MBTI's ESTJ describes me. Like seriously, this sentence alone speaks miles of truth. 'Recognition is important as it means that they "have delivered". They WANT to deliver and they want to know that they have served well. ' Anyone who knows me at least slightly better will know how I apply this sentence into my daily life.
Some other true sentences," FAILED is the way it reverberates through THEIR brains and they, perhaps more than other types, like to be RIGHT and can become quite depressed if they feel they are responsible for some disarray or major failure.
ESTJs are quite principled people, no-nonsense about rules and expected behaviour by those who are expected to know better. SHOULD...SHOULD...SHOULD is engraved upon their psyche and is a mandate for their daily life.
Honour and dignity mean a lot to them and they count openness and honesty to be virtues which should be lived spontaneously and readily, even if costly. ESTJs can "bite the bullet", "suck it up" and move on when "the hard thing" needs to be done. Remember that they are impersonal in approach, even the interpersonal. This does not mean "the milk of human kindness" does not flow through their veins. It is only that feelings are not important to them. Thinking is and past experience guides them so that they are always ready to act according to lessons already learned - not according to emotional responses. "
O.O
No-nonsense about rules? Does this explain for me wanting to ______ noisy babies? LOLOL.
They say that ESTJs are the most masculine of all personality types. Gosh.
_____ said that maybe next time all the guys see me, they will siam. I really don't know whether to cry or to laugh -.-
***
Ok, that's it for now. Feel like reading about ESTJs. I wanted to prac piano earlier, but now is already 10.59pm.. a bit too late huh.
You know, I feel kind of guilty for feeling so tired at 12+ and thus falling asleep -.- Poor Josh chionged editting until 2+.. sadly he was the only one from our group able to do it..
Ms Low gave us some time to sleep in class today. And I chionged storyboard during Math, only to have it be dismantled -.-
Will be meeting my LA group again tmr, and maybe on sun. Grr.. weekends have been taken up by this stupid proj!! And everyone seems to be using the corridor along 3H/3I classroom. Dunno who said tt maybe the tchers will be sick of it. Lol. Don't care lah.
And we're gonna get penalized for late submission. Oh well, better than handing up a 5 or 6 min long film (including credits) when it's supposed to be 10 min long!
And I got the most imba homework ever in my whole entire life. And guess what - it's not even academically-related. Yup, it's for band :O for SLs and some others. Topic: How Can I improve My Section? Mr Ng said it was to be "no less than 3000" words, but he hinted tt he wanted it to be 6 or 7k. Due date: end of this month. Sigh. Shall ask other SLs, including some not from band lah. IDEAS!!!
***
And now for the random happenings that have been happening in my life.
Physics Pop Quiz: did better than expected. Mr Hong wrote "Improvement!" on my paper. Encouraging :)
Life IS getting better somewhere. Thank God for answering my prayers! =D It's amazing how He never fails me. Praise the Lord!
I'm relieved, but still worried though. Contradictory yeah?
My results ARE crap.
I've learnt to be more.. daring? :O
I still wonder about what the future will bring. (Sounds like the Witches' Prophecies in Macbeth.)
Someone is interested in the relationship between me, Lady Macbeth, and babies.
I wonder what am I feeling. LOL. (This is meant for me to know and for you to find out xD )
I feel like going to sleep.
I wonder about what H3 papers i should take. I wanna take 2 :D (shhh!)
Some people suspect me of having a boyfriend.. they asked my mum! :O Duh I don't have lah.. and Mum believes me yay! :)
I don't think I should be jealous of that someone whom I was jealous of for many years in primary school anymore, lol.
I believe I have grown closer to God.
Nice people are all around you, if you're willing to search hard enough for them.
I love my toenails ;DD look at them to find out why. But I think someone will flip over when she sees what I've done! Haha.
Someone told me that, based on research findings, those who grow up in violent households tend to be more violent later in life.
I didn't know I was so scary and intimidating. Talk about how someone mentioned some people's body language. And evidently, these people aren't cowards leh.
Things are crashing, but remain intact.
I'm still confused. Fortunately it's better now though :)
I just ended The Most Painful Period of my life 2 days ago. The PAIN was REALLY killing me O.O
Which reminds me, some people are caring and kind beneath their somewhat mean exterior.
I've changed. A lot.
I've become much more random too. I didn't use to type such disconnected sentences a few months ago, or in lower sec.
This blog is less active than it was a few months ago. Maybe coz I've found another outlet to fa1 xie4 gan3 qing2.. or maybe I've really grown to be more positive! (:
I'm not very happy, but not sad enough to be emoing the whole day.
I realize that while I can be quite loud and extroverted in some places, I can switch off 100% and become totally introverted in some other places. I wonder why.
I must plan my next move.
I'm wasting time writing random sentences in this post.
Don't be alarmed by me locking up my blog; I will unlock it. Real soon, I hope.
I hope I can learn to smile genuinely, instead of having to put on a plastic, fake one 24/7. Must learn to be as smiley as _________. (The blank's for me to know and for you to find out.)
I must learn to be more decisive lah. Although people probably don't think I'm wishy-washy and indecisive, but oh well.
I think I'm introverted in some ways.
I think I'm equally extroverted too, haha.
I don't want to screw up any more of God's plans for me. Coz I believed I screwed up many, many times already.
I admire the strength, determination and ability of China people. And I believe that, as a Chinese myself, I must learn to emulate their qualities.
My mum is FUNNY! LOOOOOL!!! Something freaking funny happened earlier tonight, which is simply way too HILARIOUS to type out here. Coz whoever reads it will die of laughter.
But my mum reassures me that her intentions are innocent (not her exact words used lah; again, I can't type out exactly what she said coz you will fall off your chair THIS INSTANT)
Now I think I'm kinda happy leh. Mood swing, eh? ;o I always thought I'm quite wen3 ding4.
MBTI's ESTJ describes me. Like seriously, this sentence alone speaks miles of truth. 'Recognition is important as it means that they "have delivered". They WANT to deliver and they want to know that they have served well. ' Anyone who knows me at least slightly better will know how I apply this sentence into my daily life.
Some other true sentences," FAILED is the way it reverberates through THEIR brains and they, perhaps more than other types, like to be RIGHT and can become quite depressed if they feel they are responsible for some disarray or major failure.
ESTJs are quite principled people, no-nonsense about rules and expected behaviour by those who are expected to know better. SHOULD...SHOULD...SHOULD is engraved upon their psyche and is a mandate for their daily life.
Honour and dignity mean a lot to them and they count openness and honesty to be virtues which should be lived spontaneously and readily, even if costly. ESTJs can "bite the bullet", "suck it up" and move on when "the hard thing" needs to be done. Remember that they are impersonal in approach, even the interpersonal. This does not mean "the milk of human kindness" does not flow through their veins. It is only that feelings are not important to them. Thinking is and past experience guides them so that they are always ready to act according to lessons already learned - not according to emotional responses. "
O.O
No-nonsense about rules? Does this explain for me wanting to ______ noisy babies? LOLOL.
They say that ESTJs are the most masculine of all personality types. Gosh.
_____ said that maybe next time all the guys see me, they will siam. I really don't know whether to cry or to laugh -.-
***
Ok, that's it for now. Feel like reading about ESTJs. I wanted to prac piano earlier, but now is already 10.59pm.. a bit too late huh.
Friday, August 08, 2008
Was watching Beijing Olympics just now. It was so.. imba. There was this advertistment on NDP, and I realized how much more advanced China is as compared to us. The performance was magical.. the way they used effects and how they were super accurate even down to the most minute, miniscule details was really amazing.
I'm glad I went to church that day, and found an AWESOME(!) CG to be a part of. :D We must go back there another day! :D
And a really long eyelash dropped into my eye just now : was damn itchy. The longest I'd ever dropped so far, considering my frequency :\
Some of the common test results are out already. Improved, but could have done much better (DUHHH) -.- oh well. There's still EOYs to pia for.
And I'm confused. Like SERIOUSLY.
The run today was satisfying -.- except tt dunno how come sprain the same spot of my ankle as the sprain that recoverd only a few days ago ): initially I couldn't put much weight on my leg, but it got better and I didn't feel like a sprain :) but the sprain came back I think :(
Oh well. I know the above paragraphs have got no connection to each other at all, but nvm. Too tired to think properly I guess. -.-
I'm glad I went to church that day, and found an AWESOME(!) CG to be a part of. :D We must go back there another day! :D
And a really long eyelash dropped into my eye just now : was damn itchy. The longest I'd ever dropped so far, considering my frequency :\
Some of the common test results are out already. Improved, but could have done much better (DUHHH) -.- oh well. There's still EOYs to pia for.
And I'm confused. Like SERIOUSLY.
The run today was satisfying -.- except tt dunno how come sprain the same spot of my ankle as the sprain that recoverd only a few days ago ): initially I couldn't put much weight on my leg, but it got better and I didn't feel like a sprain :) but the sprain came back I think :(
Oh well. I know the above paragraphs have got no connection to each other at all, but nvm. Too tired to think properly I guess. -.-
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Apparently you have to score 30 below to be an angel
Bold is for truth. :)
1. Smoked before
2. Drunk alcohol before (1)
3. Slept with someone of the opposite sex
4. Slept with someone of the same sex
5. Gotten into any fights with my brother (no brother...)
6. Kissed someone of the opposite sex
7. Kissed someone of the same sex (my mother -.-) (2)
8. Had someone in your room of the opposite sex (my dad lor -.-) (3)
9. Scolded vulgarities lots of times (4)
10. Bought porn
11. Take drugs before medicine
12. Hate going to the doctor's
13. Lied to your parents (duh!) (5)
14. Lied to a friend back then (white lies XD ) (6)
15. Snuck out of the house
16. Done something illegal
17. Cut yourself
18. Hurt someone >.< (7)
19. Wished someone to die
20. Seen someone die
21. Missed curfew (I don't go out often so no curfew)
22. Stayed up all night (yup, once in p4 to attempt to finish all my March Hol hw, but fell asleep at 5.40am -.- ) (8)
23. Eaten a carton of ice cream
24. Been to a therapist
25. Been to a rehab
26. Dyed your hair
27. Received a ticket
28. Been in a wreck
29. Been to a club
30. Been to a bar for the sake of playing pool and drinking some stuff.
31. Been to a wild party
32. Seen the Mardi Gras
33. Had a fight (sometimes ppl will trash things out at one another >.< ) (9)
34. Had a spring break
35. Sniffed anything
36. Wore black nail polish
37. Wore wristbands (10)
38. Wore black eyeliner
40. Own a 50 cent CD
41. Hugged someone of the opposite sex (duh not! dumb ques =.= )
42. Hugged someone of the same sex (mum and some friends) (11)
43. Gone out with someone of the same sex (wth... outings lah..)
44. Gone out with someone of the opposite sex (is it so wrong to go out to do GROUP projs with guys?) (12)
45. Stole something
46. Been too drunk to remember anything
47. Blacked out
48. Fainted
49. Had a crush on your neighbour
50. Had someone else snuck into your room
51. Snuck into someone else's room
52. Had a crush on someone of the same sex (God made adam and eve, not adam and STEVE)53. Had gone and watched movies with friends (yeah, i nv -.-) (13)
54. Dry humped someone (what's that?)
55. Been called a slut
56. Called someone a slut (LOL) (14)
57. Installed speakers in your car
58. Broke a mirror
59. Showered at someone of the opposite sex's house (my uncle's hse?) (15)
60. Brushed your teeth with someone else's brush (when i was younger i didn't mind using my parents' toothbrushes.. eww i know ><) (16)
61. Consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62. Seen an R rated movie in theaters (i wanted to watch brokeback mountain leh!! but obviously i didn't -.- )
63. Gone out with friends to the mall (yeah, i didn't -.- ) (17)
64. Skipped school
65. Had an eating disorder
66. Had hurt yourself before (18)
67. Gone to court (crazy arh..)
68. Walked out of a restaurant without paying
69. Caught something on fire (paper money for my late grandfather?) (19)
70. Lied about your age in order to create a crunchyroll account (friendster, facebook and maybe tagged. don't think i have a crunchyroll acc lah)
71. Owned an apartment
72. Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend (don't even have bf how to cheat on him?)
73. Cheated with someone
74. Got in trouble with the police
75. Talked to a stranger (how else was i supposed to talk to ppl i met in church on sat?) (20)
76. Hugged a stranger
77. Kissed a stranger (EWW)
78. Rode in the car with a stranger
79. Been sexually harassed
80. Been verbally harassed
81. Met face to face with someone you met online
82. Stayed online for 12 hours
83. Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
84. Watched TV for 12 hours straight
85. Been to a fair (funfair?) (21)
86. Been called a bad influence (i'm known for being a pure guai kia kay!!)
87. Cursed (ask anyone who knows me to give testimony lah) (22)
88. Prank called someone (including some calls to my ex-tuition tchr about being some bra company with $1million worth of bras waiting outside her doorstep or something.. in pri sch..) (23)
89. Laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex (with my dad? coz we were both super tired after just arriving in america so just sleep lor.. don't think sick..) (24)
90. Cheated on a test (ting xie yes, test no)
91. Cheated on homework (copy assignments?) (25)
92. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex (my dad, when i was young?) (26)
93. Want to be dead (i'm scared of death can -.- )
94. Cut yourself before
95. Hate yourself (used to, but not anymore)
96. Had a crush on someone 10 years older than you (how to love someone with such a VAST age difference??)
97. *NOT VALID* (huh?)
98. Worn eyeliner (i think i did during the Christmas performance 2 years ago.. but i hate makeup, rahh) (27)
99. Skinny dipped (ugh)
100. Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt (and yes, that person found out ;O ) (28)
see.. i'm a good girl! haha.. lisha is an angel yay ^^
Bold is for truth. :)
1. Smoked before
2. Drunk alcohol before (1)
3. Slept with someone of the opposite sex
4. Slept with someone of the same sex
5. Gotten into any fights with my brother (no brother...)
6. Kissed someone of the opposite sex
7. Kissed someone of the same sex (my mother -.-) (2)
8. Had someone in your room of the opposite sex (my dad lor -.-) (3)
9. Scolded vulgarities lots of times (4)
10. Bought porn
11. Take drugs before medicine
12. Hate going to the doctor's
13. Lied to your parents (duh!) (5)
14. Lied to a friend back then (white lies XD ) (6)
15. Snuck out of the house
16. Done something illegal
17. Cut yourself
18. Hurt someone >.< (7)
19. Wished someone to die
20. Seen someone die
21. Missed curfew (I don't go out often so no curfew)
22. Stayed up all night (yup, once in p4 to attempt to finish all my March Hol hw, but fell asleep at 5.40am -.- ) (8)
23. Eaten a carton of ice cream
24. Been to a therapist
25. Been to a rehab
26. Dyed your hair
27. Received a ticket
28. Been in a wreck
29. Been to a club
30. Been to a bar for the sake of playing pool and drinking some stuff.
31. Been to a wild party
32. Seen the Mardi Gras
33. Had a fight (sometimes ppl will trash things out at one another >.< ) (9)
34. Had a spring break
35. Sniffed anything
36. Wore black nail polish
37. Wore wristbands (10)
38. Wore black eyeliner
40. Own a 50 cent CD
41. Hugged someone of the opposite sex (duh not! dumb ques =.= )
42. Hugged someone of the same sex (mum and some friends) (11)
43. Gone out with someone of the same sex (wth... outings lah..)
44. Gone out with someone of the opposite sex (is it so wrong to go out to do GROUP projs with guys?) (12)
45. Stole something
46. Been too drunk to remember anything
47. Blacked out
48. Fainted
49. Had a crush on your neighbour
50. Had someone else snuck into your room
51. Snuck into someone else's room
52. Had a crush on someone of the same sex (God made adam and eve, not adam and STEVE)53. Had gone and watched movies with friends (yeah, i nv -.-) (13)
54. Dry humped someone (what's that?)
55. Been called a slut
56. Called someone a slut (LOL) (14)
57. Installed speakers in your car
58. Broke a mirror
59. Showered at someone of the opposite sex's house (my uncle's hse?) (15)
60. Brushed your teeth with someone else's brush (when i was younger i didn't mind using my parents' toothbrushes.. eww i know ><) (16)
61. Consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62. Seen an R rated movie in theaters (i wanted to watch brokeback mountain leh!! but obviously i didn't -.- )
63. Gone out with friends to the mall (yeah, i didn't -.- ) (17)
64. Skipped school
65. Had an eating disorder
66. Had hurt yourself before (18)
67. Gone to court (crazy arh..)
68. Walked out of a restaurant without paying
69. Caught something on fire (paper money for my late grandfather?) (19)
70. Lied about your age in order to create a crunchyroll account (friendster, facebook and maybe tagged. don't think i have a crunchyroll acc lah)
71. Owned an apartment
72. Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend (don't even have bf how to cheat on him?)
73. Cheated with someone
74. Got in trouble with the police
75. Talked to a stranger (how else was i supposed to talk to ppl i met in church on sat?) (20)
76. Hugged a stranger
77. Kissed a stranger (EWW)
78. Rode in the car with a stranger
79. Been sexually harassed
80. Been verbally harassed
81. Met face to face with someone you met online
82. Stayed online for 12 hours
83. Talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
84. Watched TV for 12 hours straight
85. Been to a fair (funfair?) (21)
86. Been called a bad influence (i'm known for being a pure guai kia kay!!)
87. Cursed (ask anyone who knows me to give testimony lah) (22)
88. Prank called someone (including some calls to my ex-tuition tchr about being some bra company with $1million worth of bras waiting outside her doorstep or something.. in pri sch..) (23)
89. Laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex (with my dad? coz we were both super tired after just arriving in america so just sleep lor.. don't think sick..) (24)
90. Cheated on a test (ting xie yes, test no)
91. Cheated on homework (copy assignments?) (25)
92. Held hands with someone of the opposite sex (my dad, when i was young?) (26)
93. Want to be dead (i'm scared of death can -.- )
94. Cut yourself before
95. Hate yourself (used to, but not anymore)
96. Had a crush on someone 10 years older than you (how to love someone with such a VAST age difference??)
97. *NOT VALID* (huh?)
98. Worn eyeliner (i think i did during the Christmas performance 2 years ago.. but i hate makeup, rahh) (27)
99. Skinny dipped (ugh)
100. Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt (and yes, that person found out ;O ) (28)
see.. i'm a good girl! haha.. lisha is an angel yay ^^
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Lots of things have been happening lately, and it leaves me wondering about even more things :/
on thurs morn, we ran 5 rounds for PE. I thought, since I don't have the chance to exercise often, I should just use the opportunity to run faster. Was initially happy that I was the 4th or 5th girl to reach :D
Unfortunately, I got a stomache ): so I just sat down lor. But soon, the pain was so bad that I couldn't move. As if it wasn't bad enough, I had to throw up. I was so embarrassed; I wasn't even able to run to the toilet. I dared not look at my classmates, even though I think they were all staring.
But thanks Hang Yin and everyone else who helped me or just asked if I was ok or not :) thankfully, I was ok after awhile. Although I don't know why this happened; I didn't feel dehydrated nor had heartburn. And I didn't know Q was so nice to me. I thought he was merely a better version of **** **.
Was perfectly fine after a drink and could pay attention in class yay :)
***
Yesterday was the worst lah! Was damn unlucky, had it first thing in the morning ): I was hoping it could be ignored. But it was.. err..
So I brought my jacket to school, hoping that this was all I needed to do.
Everytime the air con blew on me, the pain would worsen. I was damn bloody bloated; I hate to think about what would happen if anyone accidentally hit my stomach area. By the time it was HCL, the pain was back-breaking and spread to my stomach. I couldn't pay attention, couldn't take notes, couldn't concentrate.. all I could do was lie on the table. Luckily they helped me adjust the air-con so it didn't blow on me. I was in such pain that I couldn't just stand up and do it myself. And in the middle of HCL, P asked if I was ok or not. I didn't know how to reply him, so I just said I wasn't feeling well. Then he told me to go sleep. I was surprised.. I didn't expect him to be such a nice person :/
Then xielaoshi asked if I was ok, so I said "that thing.. very pain.." LOL. She asked if it was the stomach, and if I needed to go general office. I said no. I didn't want to miss any lessons because of this stupid thing lah. Hui Han, it must have been worse for you coz yours was the whole day..
For physics, we were supposed to wait for Mr Hong outside the physics lab. The lack of air-con there alleviated my pains A LOT, but it was still so painful that I had to sit on the steps coz standing up was a chore in itself. Luckily he didn't come.. I can't imagine bouncing tennis balls with my back and stomach about to break. Or worse still, telling him about the reason for my pain.
Fortunately during ACE, the pain went away yay! Could sit up ^^ and yeah, I was able to go for band. Like thankfully :)
The only good thing was the Math Pop Quiz. I was predicting to be killed, coz I was doing math on thurs night and realized that there were still a lot of sums I didn't know how to do. However, it turned out to be like, 3 questions in half an hour! And those questions were zomgosh how to say.. freaking easy. I finished in around 5-10 min. Slacked around for the remaining time. Reminds me of primary school test.. everytime finish liao still got a lot of time left. If only the actual CT can be as easy.. but sadly, don't think it's possible though ): SUPER HENG, my pain hadn't set in then. If not I might not have been able to do the quiz at all!
Super relieved, didn't vomit yesteday :) last time mine was quite bad lah, vomit up to 3 times a day. Vomit once very good liao..
***
Today was LA filming at Si Jin's house. All we did was a bit of the montage :( quite unproductive huh. And I tried playing her sis' violin. Felt so light and fragile compared to my cello that I was apprehensive at first : luckily I managed to tune it without breaking the string XD
And I didn't know Si Jin and Steffi could strum the guitar so well! Sounds quite nice lah, but given a choice, I still won't learn guitar. For some reason, guitar has never really appealed to me.
Then had piano lesson, followed by tuition. And for the first time, my hamster got pissed with my tutor (who is supposed to be her favourite person) LOLOLOL. Super funny.
4 tests down, more than 5 more to go. Don't want to count the exact number for fear that I'll end up scaring myself :
Now is 11.32pm and I still have yet to understand physics and practice my cello. Bleh!
***
Sometimes I seriously wonder if I'm taking on too many things. Triple science, MEP, HSSRP, 2 instruments (inclusive of a piano diploma) and all the other what-nots. Bleh I really don't think I can cope. To be honest, I haven't been making time to go to church, which is supposed to be my first priority?!?!
Really feel like giving up some commitments, but I only have this one chance to do well for all the tasks and opportunities I've been given. I believe I've screwed up more than enough when I was younger; it's time to undo the damage and work even harder to make up for all that I've lost.
Haha, Valencia's Triple S. For me, it's:
Stress, Sian, Sickened. Got a lot more actually lah.
SWO concert tomorrow night :) But I wonder if I really should go, considering the amount of tests I have to conquer :/ not that I don't want to support SWO arh!!
My marks are at stake, so my future is at stake too.
And I'm still here blogging -.-
***
While on the way to piano lesson just now, I was thinking about a particular conversation and a lot of other things that have been happening lately. I wonder if I'm hypocritical, trying to believe that things are going fine when they're far from it. Or am I just over-sensitive?
Maybe things are as bad as what others think they are; maybe even worse. Or maybe there has been too much speculation :/ it's depressing and energy-draining to think about this kind of thing. It saps all my energy I should be investing into my work.
But I can't close one eye forever!
And I can't ignore problems forever!
They will just blow up one day and become too difficult for anyone to handle. Much as I would like to run away and pretend my life is fine, I wonder how long would I be able to do that. Seriously, I think I've grown to be VERY suspicious. I don't trust a single soul anymore!
But then again, I don't want to pity myself for living a crap life. In the first place, it's not exactly very nice to believe you're living a crap life -.-
It's pretty hard I admit : bleh, just have to put on a mask and fight whatever battle that has been presented to me.
on thurs morn, we ran 5 rounds for PE. I thought, since I don't have the chance to exercise often, I should just use the opportunity to run faster. Was initially happy that I was the 4th or 5th girl to reach :D
Unfortunately, I got a stomache ): so I just sat down lor. But soon, the pain was so bad that I couldn't move. As if it wasn't bad enough, I had to throw up. I was so embarrassed; I wasn't even able to run to the toilet. I dared not look at my classmates, even though I think they were all staring.
But thanks Hang Yin and everyone else who helped me or just asked if I was ok or not :) thankfully, I was ok after awhile. Although I don't know why this happened; I didn't feel dehydrated nor had heartburn. And I didn't know Q was so nice to me. I thought he was merely a better version of **** **.
Was perfectly fine after a drink and could pay attention in class yay :)
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Yesterday was the worst lah! Was damn unlucky, had it first thing in the morning ): I was hoping it could be ignored. But it was.. err..
So I brought my jacket to school, hoping that this was all I needed to do.
Everytime the air con blew on me, the pain would worsen. I was damn bloody bloated; I hate to think about what would happen if anyone accidentally hit my stomach area. By the time it was HCL, the pain was back-breaking and spread to my stomach. I couldn't pay attention, couldn't take notes, couldn't concentrate.. all I could do was lie on the table. Luckily they helped me adjust the air-con so it didn't blow on me. I was in such pain that I couldn't just stand up and do it myself. And in the middle of HCL, P asked if I was ok or not. I didn't know how to reply him, so I just said I wasn't feeling well. Then he told me to go sleep. I was surprised.. I didn't expect him to be such a nice person :/
Then xielaoshi asked if I was ok, so I said "that thing.. very pain.." LOL. She asked if it was the stomach, and if I needed to go general office. I said no. I didn't want to miss any lessons because of this stupid thing lah. Hui Han, it must have been worse for you coz yours was the whole day..
For physics, we were supposed to wait for Mr Hong outside the physics lab. The lack of air-con there alleviated my pains A LOT, but it was still so painful that I had to sit on the steps coz standing up was a chore in itself. Luckily he didn't come.. I can't imagine bouncing tennis balls with my back and stomach about to break. Or worse still, telling him about the reason for my pain.
Fortunately during ACE, the pain went away yay! Could sit up ^^ and yeah, I was able to go for band. Like thankfully :)
The only good thing was the Math Pop Quiz. I was predicting to be killed, coz I was doing math on thurs night and realized that there were still a lot of sums I didn't know how to do. However, it turned out to be like, 3 questions in half an hour! And those questions were zomgosh how to say.. freaking easy. I finished in around 5-10 min. Slacked around for the remaining time. Reminds me of primary school test.. everytime finish liao still got a lot of time left. If only the actual CT can be as easy.. but sadly, don't think it's possible though ): SUPER HENG, my pain hadn't set in then. If not I might not have been able to do the quiz at all!
Super relieved, didn't vomit yesteday :) last time mine was quite bad lah, vomit up to 3 times a day. Vomit once very good liao..
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Today was LA filming at Si Jin's house. All we did was a bit of the montage :( quite unproductive huh. And I tried playing her sis' violin. Felt so light and fragile compared to my cello that I was apprehensive at first : luckily I managed to tune it without breaking the string XD
And I didn't know Si Jin and Steffi could strum the guitar so well! Sounds quite nice lah, but given a choice, I still won't learn guitar. For some reason, guitar has never really appealed to me.
Then had piano lesson, followed by tuition. And for the first time, my hamster got pissed with my tutor (who is supposed to be her favourite person) LOLOLOL. Super funny.
4 tests down, more than 5 more to go. Don't want to count the exact number for fear that I'll end up scaring myself :
Now is 11.32pm and I still have yet to understand physics and practice my cello. Bleh!
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Sometimes I seriously wonder if I'm taking on too many things. Triple science, MEP, HSSRP, 2 instruments (inclusive of a piano diploma) and all the other what-nots. Bleh I really don't think I can cope. To be honest, I haven't been making time to go to church, which is supposed to be my first priority?!?!
Really feel like giving up some commitments, but I only have this one chance to do well for all the tasks and opportunities I've been given. I believe I've screwed up more than enough when I was younger; it's time to undo the damage and work even harder to make up for all that I've lost.
Haha, Valencia's Triple S. For me, it's:
Stress, Sian, Sickened. Got a lot more actually lah.
SWO concert tomorrow night :) But I wonder if I really should go, considering the amount of tests I have to conquer :/ not that I don't want to support SWO arh!!
My marks are at stake, so my future is at stake too.
And I'm still here blogging -.-
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While on the way to piano lesson just now, I was thinking about a particular conversation and a lot of other things that have been happening lately. I wonder if I'm hypocritical, trying to believe that things are going fine when they're far from it. Or am I just over-sensitive?
Maybe things are as bad as what others think they are; maybe even worse. Or maybe there has been too much speculation :/ it's depressing and energy-draining to think about this kind of thing. It saps all my energy I should be investing into my work.
But I can't close one eye forever!
And I can't ignore problems forever!
They will just blow up one day and become too difficult for anyone to handle. Much as I would like to run away and pretend my life is fine, I wonder how long would I be able to do that. Seriously, I think I've grown to be VERY suspicious. I don't trust a single soul anymore!
But then again, I don't want to pity myself for living a crap life. In the first place, it's not exactly very nice to believe you're living a crap life -.-
It's pretty hard I admit : bleh, just have to put on a mask and fight whatever battle that has been presented to me.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Saturday, July 12, 2008
lessons have officially started, and things look like they're a change for the worse.
damn.
i was so pissed and upset that i didn't want to eat lunch ystd, and went to slp at 10pm even though i wans't tired at all. k fine i didn't slp early in the end. spent time praying, hitting/pjnching myself & crying. funny how and why bad things ALWAYS happen to the good people. Lord, i fear.
damn.
i was so pissed and upset that i didn't want to eat lunch ystd, and went to slp at 10pm even though i wans't tired at all. k fine i didn't slp early in the end. spent time praying, hitting/pjnching myself & crying. funny how and why bad things ALWAYS happen to the good people. Lord, i fear.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
In a MSN convo earlier tonight, I came across some food for thought when my friend and I were talking about Doomsday 2012 (or rather, the Rapture):
Friend: Why should you be scared?
Me: Why should you not be scared?
Friend: Because I have a God who loves me. No matter what I do, He will still love me. When I die, I know He will still take care of me. :D
Yeah, I find this statement true. If we love and fear God wholeheartedly, we have nothing to fear, not even the fearful Rapture.
Praise the Lord :D
It's a wonder how God works through everyday life in the most unexpected scenarios. I didn't imagine He would speak to me through my friend in something as simple and mundane as an MSN convo. But He did.
Thank you God for sharing this important message with me when I least expected it :) Amen.
Friend: Why should you be scared?
Me: Why should you not be scared?
Friend: Because I have a God who loves me. No matter what I do, He will still love me. When I die, I know He will still take care of me. :D
Yeah, I find this statement true. If we love and fear God wholeheartedly, we have nothing to fear, not even the fearful Rapture.
Praise the Lord :D
It's a wonder how God works through everyday life in the most unexpected scenarios. I didn't imagine He would speak to me through my friend in something as simple and mundane as an MSN convo. But He did.
Thank you God for sharing this important message with me when I least expected it :) Amen.
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